The hangman's noose is empty.
Well I've come to a conclueson, love is a natural disaster waiting to happen. It's easy to hate and stay in that comfort zone of hating, but its all the more fun to love and be loved. Either way you get fucked over.
Lets see. Thursday I went to the mall with Paul and we hung out. We saw Erin, Elise, Andrea, and Morgan. We saw a really hot grunge guy there too, and hung out with him and his friend. Friday I went to the mall with Michelle, we hung out, she ended up getting arrested, but all's better now. Then that night I went with Paul to the Program concert at Unity and that was fucking awesome! I went into a mosh pit for the first time. I had so much fun. Saturday I went to the movies with Rita, Jessi, Kara, and a few of her friends. Then we went to Applebee's and had a feast where we all shared our food and were all nice and full. We saw the grudge. Very good movie. Sunday I just sat around the house and did nothing. It was boring.
Its funny I realized today that I don't really belong anywhere. Where ever I go to hang out, I'm never comfortable, I'd just rather hang out with a few select people or by myself, but not in a group where I barely know anyone. Mayb e that's my problem. I don't feel comfortable until I actually get to know the people. I must have social anxiety like mom does.
Steven still needs to give me my cd player and Mario game back and he still needs to come by my house and pick up his stuff. I'm sick of looking at it. If not for mom taking away my matches I would have burned them on Halloween when his friends played that nasty little "joke" on me. I've always heard the phrase "if you lay down with dog you get fleas" and I must say that is what is going to happen with him and their friends they'll all get fleas, not real ones, but problems or whatever. I don't really care anymore.
To think of it I don't really care about anything anymore, I sit around at home and do nothing but listen to music and write in my journal. I'm going to start making lots of cologes and stuff and fill my walls with beauty so I can feel like I'm in my own room and its no one else's.
Let everyone have their beauty, inner and outter!
Jenn
Lets see. Thursday I went to the mall with Paul and we hung out. We saw Erin, Elise, Andrea, and Morgan. We saw a really hot grunge guy there too, and hung out with him and his friend. Friday I went to the mall with Michelle, we hung out, she ended up getting arrested, but all's better now. Then that night I went with Paul to the Program concert at Unity and that was fucking awesome! I went into a mosh pit for the first time. I had so much fun. Saturday I went to the movies with Rita, Jessi, Kara, and a few of her friends. Then we went to Applebee's and had a feast where we all shared our food and were all nice and full. We saw the grudge. Very good movie. Sunday I just sat around the house and did nothing. It was boring.
Its funny I realized today that I don't really belong anywhere. Where ever I go to hang out, I'm never comfortable, I'd just rather hang out with a few select people or by myself, but not in a group where I barely know anyone. Mayb e that's my problem. I don't feel comfortable until I actually get to know the people. I must have social anxiety like mom does.
Steven still needs to give me my cd player and Mario game back and he still needs to come by my house and pick up his stuff. I'm sick of looking at it. If not for mom taking away my matches I would have burned them on Halloween when his friends played that nasty little "joke" on me. I've always heard the phrase "if you lay down with dog you get fleas" and I must say that is what is going to happen with him and their friends they'll all get fleas, not real ones, but problems or whatever. I don't really care anymore.
To think of it I don't really care about anything anymore, I sit around at home and do nothing but listen to music and write in my journal. I'm going to start making lots of cologes and stuff and fill my walls with beauty so I can feel like I'm in my own room and its no one else's.
Let everyone have their beauty, inner and outter!
Jenn