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i don't know what to write here. this journal kind of pisses me off. i come to it only when something's wrong or i'm upset. makes me seem so dark and forboding. or not, rather. i'm not sure.
what i was going to say. i feel stuck again. i feel like i'm boring. i feel like something's wrong with me. i feel like i need to do something crazy and change my life and just live or something. because...
i'm not. i'm not living at all. i'm existing. nothing's happening. i'm messing things up. i can't get it right. i don't know what to do. i need an exciting change....
what i was going to say. i feel stuck again. i feel like i'm boring. i feel like something's wrong with me. i feel like i need to do something crazy and change my life and just live or something. because...
i'm not. i'm not living at all. i'm existing. nothing's happening. i'm messing things up. i can't get it right. i don't know what to do. i need an exciting change....