so sad
I'm so lonely. I cried for about 5 hours tonight. I want everything to be all done. I want to move and start over. I am in the worst state of mind in Carson and I have no idea what is gonna happen if I don't stop caring. Sometimes I think it'd just be easier to end it all. I know what would happen. I don't want anybody to hurm themselves. I tried so hard to be perect but yet again I failed miserably and I can't get back on the ball cuz everytime I try something ends up happening like I get to fragile and hurt by the fact that I simply give up and stop trying. This christmas is gonna suck. I have no one to share it with and I'm miserably sick. I want to tell all my teachers that I'm sorry but they need to go on without me :( I suck a big one I'm sorry. I blocked Troy tonight trying to get over him is gonna be hard... I love him so much but I got to do what I got to do and if I don't try my best I'll never go far. So Troy if you're reading this which (you're probabbly not cuz you don't care and are really mad at me) I'm really sorry. I want you to prove me wrong.
I'd like to give a big thanks to
---Morgan (_____nagrom and
---Kadie (hurlygurly.
You guys were a big help. I don't know what I would do without you.
I'd like to give a big thanks to
---Morgan (_____nagrom and
---Kadie (hurlygurly.
You guys were a big help. I don't know what I would do without you.