Last schmutty chapter, y'all! Then I'll post the epilogue on Christmas Eve, and this thing will be done. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad about that!
This is crazy, tired girl feedbacking again now so you've been warned. Let's see what I can come up with.
I love that Sawyer can be loved but not trusted, that kind of sums up what he's all about really. For most people, love is the big one, but for Sawyer it's trust. I don't think he's ever really had anyone to trust since he was a little kid and I definitely don't think anyone's trusted him or indeed that he's given anyone reason to trust him. I mean, he can earn trust for a con but I don't think that's real because he earns that trust with the sole purpose of breaking it. This thing with Jack is different. As far as Sawyer's concerned, if someone trusts him, they're gonna get hurt, and I just don't think he wants to do that to Jack.
I love that Jack wants nothing more than to spend the night with Sawyer on New Year's Eve and the fact that he truly thinks of that house as his home. And the way Sawyer makes all that stuff and how open he is about his traditions. See, he has these moments were he's so unabashedly open with Jack, where he really lets him in, and this is one of them, when he finally admits to just why he's kept hold of that house, how he wants peace, I just love that.
I love the conversation by the fire when they're sipping champagne, Sawyer trying to be all pessimistic about life and Jack calling him on his shit. Sawyer is so strong and so determined but I think he needs reminding of that fact occasionally. He thinks that he'll fall apart if Jack ever leaves him, it's happened already really, when he sent Jack away, but Jack has this faith in Sawyer, this faith that he'll always make it work if something's worth fighting for, and he's so right, that's so Sawyer. But that's the key, it has to be worth fighting for, and Jack knows that Sawyer would fight for him, that he'd make it work, and he cites examples that don't give Sawyer any choice but to believe him.
Jack taking charge, having this plan of how he's going to open him up, really make Sawyer let him in, and not just physically but in every other way, I just love that. And I love how he gets him so undone. This is probably weird but I love when they use the hip under the pillow thing, it's not something you see often but it makes sense and it's a more comfortable way to get that angle than being a contortionist. And rimming, rimming is such a kink of mine, love it. But enough of me being kinky, let's move on...
Again, you got that first time vibe down so perfectly here. Neither one of them really knows what they're doing but they both know that they want it and so they just work through it together. I love when Jack finally pushes in and they kind of stop to talk tactics, finding a way for them both to be comfortable physically and emotionally. And the communication here is just fantastic, it really shows their connection and how much they care for each other. Communication is so important in this kind of act where you're unsure and you have the potential to hurt someone so I love that they have that here.
Sawyer coming so undone that he can't even talk. God, you kill me with that. And I love how Jack knows what he's feeling, knows what he needs, and he just holds him and soothes him and reassures him. I think in a way it's important that Jack went first because I think he's more capable of handling the feelings that come along with it and so he's better prepared to help Sawyer when he goes through the same thing here.
Lovely part, and I didn't even mention naked-but-for-an-apron-Sawyer and the cuteness of trying to light fireworks in the snow. I'm sad that there's only one part left but I can't wait to see how you tie this up :)
Um, can I first timidly say that I love it that you loved the rimming? Because I've never written it before, and I felt like such a virgin trying to get it right! And I love how you say they "talked tactics," because that describes it perfectly and I hadn't thought of it that way. What you said about the conversation by the fire was so well-said, and it helped me see more clearly how I wanted to say things in the epilogue, so I edited a bit after I read this. You've clarified things for me several times, and though you say you're tired and you seem to think you ramble (silly girl!), you have really given me a lot of great help. In a story like this, it's been so helpful to have you and some others commenting on each part because it's helped me edit later parts to better show what I meant to show. I hope that makes sense; what I'm saying is that you've been an angel and I am so grateful to you! Thank you, for this feedback and for everything! ♥
I love that Sawyer can be loved but not trusted, that kind of sums up what he's all about really. For most people, love is the big one, but for Sawyer it's trust. I don't think he's ever really had anyone to trust since he was a little kid and I definitely don't think anyone's trusted him or indeed that he's given anyone reason to trust him. I mean, he can earn trust for a con but I don't think that's real because he earns that trust with the sole purpose of breaking it. This thing with Jack is different. As far as Sawyer's concerned, if someone trusts him, they're gonna get hurt, and I just don't think he wants to do that to Jack.
I love that Jack wants nothing more than to spend the night with Sawyer on New Year's Eve and the fact that he truly thinks of that house as his home. And the way Sawyer makes all that stuff and how open he is about his traditions. See, he has these moments were he's so unabashedly open with Jack, where he really lets him in, and this is one of them, when he finally admits to just why he's kept hold of that house, how he wants peace, I just love that.
I love the conversation by the fire when they're sipping champagne, Sawyer trying to be all pessimistic about life and Jack calling him on his shit. Sawyer is so strong and so determined but I think he needs reminding of that fact occasionally. He thinks that he'll fall apart if Jack ever leaves him, it's happened already really, when he sent Jack away, but Jack has this faith in Sawyer, this faith that he'll always make it work if something's worth fighting for, and he's so right, that's so Sawyer. But that's the key, it has to be worth fighting for, and Jack knows that Sawyer would fight for him, that he'd make it work, and he cites examples that don't give Sawyer any choice but to believe him.
Jack taking charge, having this plan of how he's going to open him up, really make Sawyer let him in, and not just physically but in every other way, I just love that. And I love how he gets him so undone. This is probably weird but I love when they use the hip under the pillow thing, it's not something you see often but it makes sense and it's a more comfortable way to get that angle than being a contortionist. And rimming, rimming is such a kink of mine, love it. But enough of me being kinky, let's move on...
Again, you got that first time vibe down so perfectly here. Neither one of them really knows what they're doing but they both know that they want it and so they just work through it together. I love when Jack finally pushes in and they kind of stop to talk tactics, finding a way for them both to be comfortable physically and emotionally. And the communication here is just fantastic, it really shows their connection and how much they care for each other. Communication is so important in this kind of act where you're unsure and you have the potential to hurt someone so I love that they have that here.
Sawyer coming so undone that he can't even talk. God, you kill me with that. And I love how Jack knows what he's feeling, knows what he needs, and he just holds him and soothes him and reassures him. I think in a way it's important that Jack went first because I think he's more capable of handling the feelings that come along with it and so he's better prepared to help Sawyer when he goes through the same thing here.
Lovely part, and I didn't even mention naked-but-for-an-apron-Sawyer and the cuteness of trying to light fireworks in the snow. I'm sad that there's only one part left but I can't wait to see how you tie this up :)
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