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[smokinstarkat]

this is one of those times you look back and think - what was i thinking? id like to give a good word about someone that diserves it in every way, and its long over due.

chris - I can't belive you remembered everything back to mrs. mcknights class! thats unreal - but listen. I just wanted to say that you are such a great guy and you have so much

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[shot97]

Although ive heard “your going to find someone great someday” several hundred times in my life, ive never had it prefaced like the way you did. Usually I’m the only one that thinks “what was I thinking?” so thank you that touched my heart. I don’t know if I believe that ill find anyone anymore. I’m too shy to go to clubs, and basically every girl I talk to said hi to me first. I actually like that about me and the girls I meet. Regardless of how badly some of them treat me they honestly are awesome girls to even care enough to try to be my friend in the beginning. That’s the girl that I want, I want an outgoing girl who can get me to do amazing things just because I see that she knows that I can do it. The thing is that girl want to be my friend but none of them ever thought then that I could be anything more. After they say hi I do more then my share, and at least a couple of them have come to realize I meant more to them then they thought I would. Still its just…. Not enough I guess. Once you get past school, the days of girls coming up to you are pretty much gone. In school it didn’t even happen that often… I really felt like I needed some kind of relationship during this time in my life, that way I’d have the will to make it through my twenties. Honestly I am not looking forward to being a 26 year old virgin. So if I ever end up with someone I do believe it would be a good match, I think we would complete each other. I think I’m a good match for at least one of the girls I know, but believing that we go good together doesn’t mean the girl does. I need her to want me too,and while ive seen her face when suddenly she thought she could be with me- some people are awfully good at covering up what isn’t familiar. I am defiantly not familiar to any girls. So if I ever got her, wed both be lucky… tis a big if however. Thanks for believing in me, good to know another great looking girl with a great personality thinks ill find someone. Heh, nah, even though ive heard it before it did make me feel good to hear it your way. Thanks.

Sorry if it took me a long time to reply, I was actually in South Carolina with the girl that I love who won’t love me. I had been up for over 24 hours when she called in the middle of the night and wanted to see me. That’s love. I love her a lot.