Things are going to be okay
Leah and I had a fight yesterday but we talked it through and skirted disaster for another day. I've always been shy, but the past couple of months have given me an irrational fear of violence and a conviction that if I fuck up a conversation I'll have lost a friend forever.
Sometimes that's true.
But for the most part it's probably not. I tend to think in superlatives. I tend to hold onto things but I'm letting go. I believe there's still room for me to change, but at this point I'd say the overall shape of my personality is pretty set. I'm my own best creation. I think I'm pretty much okay.
Tonight I'm leading an alternative worship service down at the UU church, and then my family is coming to visit! I'm so excited. Nina has a prospie staying over so our room is in shambles, but I think the little one is leaving so I'll have time to straighten up. Tomorrow is radio and Collaborations, where I'm presenting my project on Paradoxical Production Before Comprehension. Yesterday's presentation went well even though I was all by myself- tomorrow Prof de Villiers and Jackie will be there to help me.
Still no word on whether I got into the Amherst or Hampshire classes, but in the meantime my schedule consists of Chinese II, Wittgenstein (!!), Intro to Discrete Math, and Western Classics. It's a little dry, so I hope I get into an arts course.
Sometimes that's true.
But for the most part it's probably not. I tend to think in superlatives. I tend to hold onto things but I'm letting go. I believe there's still room for me to change, but at this point I'd say the overall shape of my personality is pretty set. I'm my own best creation. I think I'm pretty much okay.
Tonight I'm leading an alternative worship service down at the UU church, and then my family is coming to visit! I'm so excited. Nina has a prospie staying over so our room is in shambles, but I think the little one is leaving so I'll have time to straighten up. Tomorrow is radio and Collaborations, where I'm presenting my project on Paradoxical Production Before Comprehension. Yesterday's presentation went well even though I was all by myself- tomorrow Prof de Villiers and Jackie will be there to help me.
Still no word on whether I got into the Amherst or Hampshire classes, but in the meantime my schedule consists of Chinese II, Wittgenstein (!!), Intro to Discrete Math, and Western Classics. It's a little dry, so I hope I get into an arts course.