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[smokinghippie]

i got so fucked up last night! it was bad and im not drinking for a very long time. i got a check for 12 hours and it was $74! i cant wait til i get a real check. i work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week.anyway, i dont remember alot about lastnight. i remember smoking a blunt under a bridge, and taking a few shots there too. then we went to sara's open house and i drank alot more and i threw up. a lot. i bought a 20 bag and had a fat blunt left and i guesse randy took it outta my pocket while i was drunk and now its gone. he says i smoked it too but i was drunk and i dont remember. he shouldn't have even taken it or invited people to smoke without asking or at least telling me. i think he hates me right now. ill try to talk to him and in about 2 seconds we're arguing. or he'll just be like "i dont wanna talk to you"

............wait a second..........
i dont think hes mad anymore cause he just got some money from his mom. is that what that was about? money?!im so confused. all i know is i love this kid more than anything in this world even though we fight alot and im usually confused about whats going on with us. i didnt type it in here cause, i dont know, but maybe it has something to do with the fack that we finally had sex. i dont know. i gave him my virginity and i know he must know how important that is. he knows i was a prude before him. i must go east sloppy joes. it will make everything better for the time being.