Nov 11, 2007 03:12
It's only once you've forsaken what you can't see that you begin to forget your existence.
As long as there's something you don't know, you're alive and well.
Or not?
Really unsure of a lot of pieces.
Good, stable, solid things - extreme need and want of my lover, passionate desire to perform and create music, very appreciative of the mind powers, extremely willing to change.
Just because I'm not shoving it in your face doesn't mean it's not there. Ray Sherwin had a good idea. But for the sake of originality and peace of mind, I have to make it up on my own. First of all, my schedule can't fit and hour of mediation every 3 waking hours. But also, I think an elaboration of my created language should start taking hold fairly early on (it's almost been 2 years).
I think the incubation phase is about up. It's about time to stop wandering back and forth between doing and thinking, and either just do, or find a balance that benefits my lifestuffs.
I've got a fair bit of "original" helpful information for myself. I think this time around, we're going to start it. Incorporate those ideas. Rewrite them? leave them out?
Say goodbye today - I've got to grow up. These are so much more fragile and unnecessary than my previous, childish claims. I'm an oak: any more, and I'll break. I only need my acorn. Sure, I got have some branches. But that acorn is number one - and I shouldn't jeopardize than for a flaky leaf here and there. In my life, he's worth a struggle, a fight, a reconciliation. I give up everything, in exchange for everything. It's well worth it. This pain is mutual, and this struggle is not going unrewarded.
Bah boo itty bitty munch bar BAM!