lyho its.
What an intense time!
I feel so disconnected from everything right now, but closer to it than ever before. Good 'ol magick. And lover, too, for that matter. He probably helps my perspective as much if not more than practicing per se. And considering he expanded my anathema beyond it... well, you know.
I'm about to graduate and go make lots of money. Hoorah!
I just bought a lot of cool new toys for this venture of mine. Hoorah!
The mate and I have been far more actively building on our projects... they're coming along nicely, and along with his various book projects, I'm sure we'll be well off beyond this paradigm within the next year.
I stopped doing a lot of things that were very bad for me. Worrying being one of them. Life is much better now.
It's just been amazing. Last year, there were a few points (well, some of the only time I saw him) that Chris and I hit that were really cool, as far as reevaluating our own lives and how we relate to each other. We developed entirely new appreciation for each other in very strange and miraculous but still cool ways. At points last year, I didn't think life could get any better, especially considering where he and I were just as people, and as a couple (well, with that whole long distance thing kind of out of the equation, of course). But then seeing him come down here again and experiencing both of us growing in ways I'm not sure we could have if certain things hadn't commenced... well, it was just something else to be ecstatic about. March-May was probably the hardest time in my life, but also one of the best. I've never been so safe and reassured, and just felt such a complete and unwavering support like that. especially not from one individual. And recently? he's just been absolutely ridiculously amazing. from the little things he does every day, to every time I see him, to when we're on the phone... it's like he's going out of his way to make me even more of a pompous leo than I already am, he's treating me so good.
It's just really cool. When we first got together, I didn't think anybody could be more perfect. I didn't think life could get any more amazing then it was. And he continues to make me feel this way, but now my mind is just blown with awesomeness.
I don't know. It's like, when someone is really like, uncalled for awesome to you. Sometimes it's just hard to think of what to say. You just go around with this dopey grin on your face all the time. And anybody could do anything to you, and you wouldn't really care one way or the other, because in that moment, in this moment, in this life, every thing is as it should be.
I'm just so grateful that I have him in my life. Words seriously cannot describe...
Okay. I'm tired, and probably just lovesick and fatigued!! ;-P
I feel so disconnected from everything right now, but closer to it than ever before. Good 'ol magick. And lover, too, for that matter. He probably helps my perspective as much if not more than practicing per se. And considering he expanded my anathema beyond it... well, you know.
I'm about to graduate and go make lots of money. Hoorah!
I just bought a lot of cool new toys for this venture of mine. Hoorah!
The mate and I have been far more actively building on our projects... they're coming along nicely, and along with his various book projects, I'm sure we'll be well off beyond this paradigm within the next year.
I stopped doing a lot of things that were very bad for me. Worrying being one of them. Life is much better now.
It's just been amazing. Last year, there were a few points (well, some of the only time I saw him) that Chris and I hit that were really cool, as far as reevaluating our own lives and how we relate to each other. We developed entirely new appreciation for each other in very strange and miraculous but still cool ways. At points last year, I didn't think life could get any better, especially considering where he and I were just as people, and as a couple (well, with that whole long distance thing kind of out of the equation, of course). But then seeing him come down here again and experiencing both of us growing in ways I'm not sure we could have if certain things hadn't commenced... well, it was just something else to be ecstatic about. March-May was probably the hardest time in my life, but also one of the best. I've never been so safe and reassured, and just felt such a complete and unwavering support like that. especially not from one individual. And recently? he's just been absolutely ridiculously amazing. from the little things he does every day, to every time I see him, to when we're on the phone... it's like he's going out of his way to make me even more of a pompous leo than I already am, he's treating me so good.
It's just really cool. When we first got together, I didn't think anybody could be more perfect. I didn't think life could get any more amazing then it was. And he continues to make me feel this way, but now my mind is just blown with awesomeness.
I don't know. It's like, when someone is really like, uncalled for awesome to you. Sometimes it's just hard to think of what to say. You just go around with this dopey grin on your face all the time. And anybody could do anything to you, and you wouldn't really care one way or the other, because in that moment, in this moment, in this life, every thing is as it should be.
I'm just so grateful that I have him in my life. Words seriously cannot describe...
Okay. I'm tired, and probably just lovesick and fatigued!! ;-P