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i hate it because i never know what to do. i mean i always tell heidi "follow your heart" but my heart is telling me to do something that i think might ruin everything.
my life is very confusing, even to me.
ever since heidi started school her and i have become more and more distant, i never talk to her anymore, and i dont know why. she is always busy with juggling her time between school and matt. which is a good thing that she is still trying to make ends meet with everything. i just wanted to tell you heidi that i love you for that because you have grown up so much to me and you have become someone else to me. thats not a bad thing i feel like you are doing what you want now you are becoming who you want to be, now a ferensic scientest but you are working your ass off to finish school on time and yet you are still trying to mend your relationship and i give you so many props for that. i know that there are alot of thing that you dont approve of right now and you voice your opinion about them and the only reason that i flip out is because your opinion is the only one that matters to me. i know that you and i dont get to spend time together and we dont talk like we used to but i hope that you and i can talk about things more when you are out of school and you are not going to bed at 10. hehe, dond forget about rachels party this weekend, we are going to have fun. but i am tired so i am going to go to bed now so good night.