nostalgia.
I haven't been sleeping, I haven't been taking my pills regularly. You know what is one of the most irritating feelings in the world? Not being able to yawn, your mouth goes agape and suddenly something stops you. It's like wanting to sneeze but it won't come out.
I was reading our love letters. The one you framed up. I used to conjure them up when i was at work. i used to steal receipts and pens just so i could write you the words that flow into my head when i thought of you. i remember i wrote something like this,
" you see these are mere words. just plain words. they still cannot encompass what i feel for you. this infinite glorious feeling that is stored in me. it's just not possible to have four letters describe what you are to me. if i repeat those three words a trillion times over, all we'd have are alphabets filling up the space around us, crossing over each other unable to justify any meaning to what i feel for you. i'd scatter them on stars and float them on seas just to reach to you, and still, it would only be a miniscule proportion of this feeling that i'm trying to explain to you."
well something like that.