The Sharp Hint of New Tears

[smokedjaguar]

There's always something to ponder. This time it seems that I ponder my place in this world. It is one thing to cheer up my companions when they require consolation, and although enjoyable, that is not exactly a memorable feat. It seems I am boldly going nowhere. But, can I really waste so much raw talent with sheer apathy and lethargy? I

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[thoughtsbetween]

I also have an absurd memory. It makes school easier. You're dismissing many things that others would admire in you. Why? They're good qualities. You feel you've done everything, but you have not. There's so much in life that isn't memory, or concepts...there's a load of random shit that you have to deal with constantly. It's unplanned and unavoidable. Maybe you can try to get involved with something that requires more than your mind - something that will force you to exercise your spirit and body. I know you had karate; are you still doing that?

I don't understand why you have to use your 'gift' to your advantage. You happen to be bright. Maybe the problem is that we're taught to strive for excellence, and we're told to use our gifts to get us there. What if no one has been gifted with anything? What if we just have different qualities?

Oh, and if you truly knew everything, you wouldn't have had any questions in your entry. There will always be more for you to learn and to explore. Sorry if this was mean...that wasn't my intention. I just don't want you to feel down because you're smarter than the average bear.