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Um, so back is still sore.
Brain also hurting as i seem to have fallen under the shadow of someone else mental illness, which is no laughing matter.
Starting to feel that everything is a little pointless and that it's all just pushing shit uphill with a pointy stick - messy and ineffective. If i work this knot out of my back, or actually get a bright smile and some positive energy from a particular source or two, i expect it will perk me up for a few days at least until i find something else to get all mardy about.
I really need more days off, although, i did find myself wasting the last couple, and am not sure how i feel about that. Perhaps i should jump back into GW2 which i have been off for a couple of months as i started trying to work through my growing steam library.
I am worried that despite my intentions to be more positive and more outgoing, that i am going to go the other way and go back into hiding, mostly because i cannot be bothered and i seem to have completely lost faith in people. Perhaps, better stated as i don't think that i will find value in strangers, and my own people are enough (or too much in some cases).
Definitely, need a holiday, but i don't have a whole lot of faith in myself to do it properly. IF i take leave from work, i need to get away, far away and have a proper holiday. Unfortunately, knowing myself, rather than doing something like that, i am more likely to end up staying up all night drinking with disreputable people and sleeping all day, and then possibly going native...