The Long Walk home

[smokedamage]

Two and a half blocks has never seemed so far.

Don't know how i would have done it on my own. But i didn't have to.

A summer night, blending into every other.

Words, ideas, beliefs. Communication.

A long walk.

Stolen kisses. No. Not stolen. Freely given. Even though verbotenLittle kisses in the night. Not meant to hurt anyone

Comments

[deliriousescape]

Damn...have I told you are an amazing writer??

[smokedamage]

not in those words, but you're the one that convinced me to take seriously the concept of writing a book.

how many words am i aiming for?

[deliriousescape]

For a book....average 250 - 300 words a page, 350 pages give or take. 80,000 will do for now!! How many do you have??

[smokedamage]

2517....

i don't think i know 80,000 words

[deliriousescape]

You can repeat some!! Most writers don't have trouble coming up with what they need, the problem is cutting down to what is really necessary.

[smokedamage]

I don't think i have ever over-written for an essay.

I have a problem with word counts.

It's because i think, speak and write funny.

There is a density to the words i use, lots of meanings that in a lot of cases only i can see. Sometimes people will see some of the things. It's a problem that i have a lot of problems with. Everything going on in my head is word games, and linking words and ideas, and spawning new ones.

i don't know how to deal with it.

[deliriousescape]

I like the word "density," it definitely fits how you write

[smokedamage]

I like the word "density," it definitely fits how you write.

Some would suggest that "density" is a word that very much describes a lot about me.

You mention essays.

School. I only seemed to write them about two weeks late and the night before because i bullied myself into doing it finally. A small department once asked me to write something over summer, so that they could pass me, and let me go onto the senior levels. I felt so guilty, i couldn't. Yay me. Sense of Honour: 4172 Intelligence : 0

Is there a richness to any theme or character in any of your writings that you cannot let go of, one that haunts you? I don't recommend trying to rewrite or add to a piece you are happy with....because you will never be happy changing it, it will feel wrong to you. But take whatever it is and work with it again and add layers. See if revisiting an old "love" works. Your head needs to be clear of everything but that ONE thing...relate the new ideas you spawn to this. Make those new ideas your layers.Er. I have no idea. I never seem to

[deliriousescape]

Don't have a story to tell?? There are several that could work from what I have read in your journal alone. I have read maybe 30/40 posts...your journal goes years back, search it out. Take this journal post alone...what happened before the walk home?? Take me back 2 years or 10 years or 15 minutes. Why doesn't she "want to hurt him any more?" Why does she say that? feel that?? how did she hurt him?? why?? Who are the others neither of you want to hurt?? Take me past that walk to the future... regrets? what ifs? Oh there is a story here...
Yep, it is scary...

[smokedamage]

Agreed. There is a lot there, in this on-fiction, i can only guess some of the answers.

and she "doesn't want him to hurt anymore."

maybe there's a double meaning to it. Maybe there isn't. I don't know that she has ever hurt me. Maybe she thinks she has. I could only guess.

[deliriousescape]

Guess them and write it down....

[smokedamage]

in this case i will not.

it's not a story to share at this point.

but your point is well made and understood.

[deliriousescape]

Well, you need to find what is comfortable for you. You have stories, if you choose to use them. One personal moment can be turned into a work of fiction....but you have to be willing to share that moment. Sometimes that is just not possible. I am here if you need me.

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[smokedamage]

gotcha.

it's coming.