Been gone for a while.
Things got intense for too long. I'm finished with everything.
january
- reacquaint myself with aaron. start hanging out a lot.
- dance studio drama shit
- start getting closer to all the dance girls
- try a lot of pills for the first time.
febuary
- start popping pills all the time. lortabs, morphine, percocets, mostly.
- meet and talk with my cousin derrick for the first time in months.
- aaron and i start hanging out with a.t. from the studio. pills everywhere. all the time.
march
- utah, cougarette trip. aaron and i bring some bud. first time smoking in nearly a year.
- mine and chelsey's relationship begins to crumble.
- aaron and i smoke with a.t. for the first time.
april
- start smoking every day with aaron.
- aaron and i hook up with mandy and christa. i never call christa again. first time ever doing that.
- aaron and i start drinking regularly.
- chelsey begins to question my friendship. beginning of the end.
may
- things start to really speed up.
- may 12, birthday, get incredibly drunk with aaron and a.t. puke for the first time on alcohol. end the night smoking with aaron and derrick and passing out.
- write an ultimatum letter to chelsey. she hates it. our relationship ends for the time being.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills.
june
- hook up with janelle. start to like her.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills
- get confronted by parents about rampant drug use. cave in and admit to everything. make things seem a lot worse in some weird, attention seeking twist.
- vow to quit everything.
- two weeks of sobriety on the church history tour. went everywhere from niagara falls to washington dc to new york. get really close with diana and christina. things start to look up.
- meet and hook up with holly on the church history tour. holly smokes, drinks, does tweak, coke, etc. etc. plan on going back to partying immediately upon return to vegas. hook up with holly's best friend, mckenzie, right before the tour is over.
july
- paris with my family. last week of sobriety.
- break up with holly because she's a bipolar, tweaking psycho.
- a.t. moves in for a few weeks before he moves to new orleans.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills.
- parents continue to question my drug use. friction increases. the great denial begins. agree to move out with aaron.
- overdose on valiums in a church parking lot. lots of vomit and loss of motor skills. very scary. stop popping so many pills.
- a.t. moves to new orleans.
august
- agree with aaron that we both need to quit everything. agree with parents to move to utah to go to school.
- go to utah with mom and little brother to look for housing.
- meet up with aaron in st. george. try cocaine for the first time.
- start using cocaine daily. start drinking heavily.
- move to utah and quit everything cold turkey. throw out an eightball of coke before i leave. really believe i'm going to quit everything this time.
september
- three solid weeks of sobriety.
- start attending utah valley state college.
- attempt to rekindle my relationship with chelsey since she's the only person i know in utah. almost immediately, we get in a fight and agree to never speak to one another again.
- meet new friends. have sober fun. enjoy life.
- spontaneously decide to drive back to vegas for the weekend to visit everyone.
- start smoking and drinking again.
- try to take valiums for the first time in months. mix them with a lot of alcohol. end up puking all over the movie theater bathroom.
october
- bring coke and weed back to utah. get really coked out and call chelsey. apologize and mend bridge.
- quickly run out of drugs. turn to alcohol. start drinking hard liquor very heavily every day and night.
- secret weekend trips back to vegas.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, coke, and pills.
- halloween: honestly can't remember what happened, where i was, who i was with, etc.
november
- tension between utah roommates and i. they don't like my reclusive drug and alcohol use. imagine that.
- decide to move back to vegas as soon as the semester is over.
- secret weekend trips back to vegas.
- try shrooms for the first time. fry balls.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, coke, pills, and shrooms.
- quit doing coke. only thing that keeps me from going back, to this day, is aaron.
- sneak down to vegas a week before thanksgiving. miss nearly two weeks of classes. get caught by parents. big ordeal.
- start dealing every so often. plan on getting a scale, baggies, the whole nine yards. aaron convinces me to not start dealing full time.
- final fight with chelsey. hurtful things are said. the bridge is burned for good. beef with her boyfriend begins.
december
- move back to vegas.
- a.t. visits for a few days.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills.
- aaron and i agree that we really, truthfully, honestly need to quit everything and straighten our lives out.
- christmas is fun. get a few neat things.
- chill and smoke with aaron and derrick. no outlandish parties or anything.
- new years eve: get really drunk and high with aaron and his cousins. go down to the strip, then to a party. get in a fight. lots of fun. aaron and i agree that new years will be our last party.
january
- reacquaint myself with aaron. start hanging out a lot.
- dance studio drama shit
- start getting closer to all the dance girls
- try a lot of pills for the first time.
febuary
- start popping pills all the time. lortabs, morphine, percocets, mostly.
- meet and talk with my cousin derrick for the first time in months.
- aaron and i start hanging out with a.t. from the studio. pills everywhere. all the time.
march
- utah, cougarette trip. aaron and i bring some bud. first time smoking in nearly a year.
- mine and chelsey's relationship begins to crumble.
- aaron and i smoke with a.t. for the first time.
april
- start smoking every day with aaron.
- aaron and i hook up with mandy and christa. i never call christa again. first time ever doing that.
- aaron and i start drinking regularly.
- chelsey begins to question my friendship. beginning of the end.
may
- things start to really speed up.
- may 12, birthday, get incredibly drunk with aaron and a.t. puke for the first time on alcohol. end the night smoking with aaron and derrick and passing out.
- write an ultimatum letter to chelsey. she hates it. our relationship ends for the time being.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills.
june
- hook up with janelle. start to like her.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills
- get confronted by parents about rampant drug use. cave in and admit to everything. make things seem a lot worse in some weird, attention seeking twist.
- vow to quit everything.
- two weeks of sobriety on the church history tour. went everywhere from niagara falls to washington dc to new york. get really close with diana and christina. things start to look up.
- meet and hook up with holly on the church history tour. holly smokes, drinks, does tweak, coke, etc. etc. plan on going back to partying immediately upon return to vegas. hook up with holly's best friend, mckenzie, right before the tour is over.
july
- paris with my family. last week of sobriety.
- break up with holly because she's a bipolar, tweaking psycho.
- a.t. moves in for a few weeks before he moves to new orleans.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills.
- parents continue to question my drug use. friction increases. the great denial begins. agree to move out with aaron.
- overdose on valiums in a church parking lot. lots of vomit and loss of motor skills. very scary. stop popping so many pills.
- a.t. moves to new orleans.
august
- agree with aaron that we both need to quit everything. agree with parents to move to utah to go to school.
- go to utah with mom and little brother to look for housing.
- meet up with aaron in st. george. try cocaine for the first time.
- start using cocaine daily. start drinking heavily.
- move to utah and quit everything cold turkey. throw out an eightball of coke before i leave. really believe i'm going to quit everything this time.
september
- three solid weeks of sobriety.
- start attending utah valley state college.
- attempt to rekindle my relationship with chelsey since she's the only person i know in utah. almost immediately, we get in a fight and agree to never speak to one another again.
- meet new friends. have sober fun. enjoy life.
- spontaneously decide to drive back to vegas for the weekend to visit everyone.
- start smoking and drinking again.
- try to take valiums for the first time in months. mix them with a lot of alcohol. end up puking all over the movie theater bathroom.
october
- bring coke and weed back to utah. get really coked out and call chelsey. apologize and mend bridge.
- quickly run out of drugs. turn to alcohol. start drinking hard liquor very heavily every day and night.
- secret weekend trips back to vegas.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, coke, and pills.
- halloween: honestly can't remember what happened, where i was, who i was with, etc.
november
- tension between utah roommates and i. they don't like my reclusive drug and alcohol use. imagine that.
- decide to move back to vegas as soon as the semester is over.
- secret weekend trips back to vegas.
- try shrooms for the first time. fry balls.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, coke, pills, and shrooms.
- quit doing coke. only thing that keeps me from going back, to this day, is aaron.
- sneak down to vegas a week before thanksgiving. miss nearly two weeks of classes. get caught by parents. big ordeal.
- start dealing every so often. plan on getting a scale, baggies, the whole nine yards. aaron convinces me to not start dealing full time.
- final fight with chelsey. hurtful things are said. the bridge is burned for good. beef with her boyfriend begins.
december
- move back to vegas.
- a.t. visits for a few days.
- more parties, alcohol, weed, and pills.
- aaron and i agree that we really, truthfully, honestly need to quit everything and straighten our lives out.
- christmas is fun. get a few neat things.
- chill and smoke with aaron and derrick. no outlandish parties or anything.
- new years eve: get really drunk and high with aaron and his cousins. go down to the strip, then to a party. get in a fight. lots of fun. aaron and i agree that new years will be our last party.