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So I saw The Fantasticks for the first time since I was very little today.
And I was completely awe-struck by how wonderful a show it is. What a great coming of age story.. what a great love story.
It's stories like this that truly inspire me.
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The other day, I was visiting my great aunt in the hospital, who was there with pneumonia. She's back in the nursing home now, and is doing well. She was at Melrose-Wakefield. I got lost trying to find her room and I ended up finding myself in the ER...
the same ER that I had my relapse in last September.
I tried so hard not to flashback, but it happened. And immediately, I thought back to how screwed up everything was, how hopeless it all seemed. How in that moment I couldn't imagine life getting any better or finding anything worth living for. I walked around and found the very corner I sat in as I sobbed to Lang about how desperately unhappy I was before they took me away.
I haven't really felt a flashback like that for a while...
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Anyways, what I'm getting at... is the Fantasticks tonight put everything into perspective.
The characters, Matt and Louisa, begin as innocent loves. And then through life experiences, misery and pain, they grow up and realize life and love aren't as simple as they thought. And through that, they prevail. And with their new found perspective can love each other in a new way, and continue to live... now happier, wiser, and braver.
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"There is a curious paradox that no one can explain: who understands the secrets of the reaping of the grain? Who understands why spring is born out of winter's laboring pain, or why we all must die a bit before we grow again?"
I have prevailed through everything that's happened. A part of my innocence died this past fall, but wisdom grew as well. And because of it, I am an adult now. I am happier, wiser, and braver.
And I was completely awe-struck by how wonderful a show it is. What a great coming of age story.. what a great love story.
It's stories like this that truly inspire me.
~~
The other day, I was visiting my great aunt in the hospital, who was there with pneumonia. She's back in the nursing home now, and is doing well. She was at Melrose-Wakefield. I got lost trying to find her room and I ended up finding myself in the ER...
the same ER that I had my relapse in last September.
I tried so hard not to flashback, but it happened. And immediately, I thought back to how screwed up everything was, how hopeless it all seemed. How in that moment I couldn't imagine life getting any better or finding anything worth living for. I walked around and found the very corner I sat in as I sobbed to Lang about how desperately unhappy I was before they took me away.
I haven't really felt a flashback like that for a while...
~~
Anyways, what I'm getting at... is the Fantasticks tonight put everything into perspective.
The characters, Matt and Louisa, begin as innocent loves. And then through life experiences, misery and pain, they grow up and realize life and love aren't as simple as they thought. And through that, they prevail. And with their new found perspective can love each other in a new way, and continue to live... now happier, wiser, and braver.
~~
"There is a curious paradox that no one can explain: who understands the secrets of the reaping of the grain? Who understands why spring is born out of winter's laboring pain, or why we all must die a bit before we grow again?"
I have prevailed through everything that's happened. A part of my innocence died this past fall, but wisdom grew as well. And because of it, I am an adult now. I am happier, wiser, and braver.