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Sometimes I just get so sad for no apparent reason.
I'm loved for and cared for by so many people, but it can't keep me from moments like this. Moments at 2:45 in the morning where I'm left with nothing but complete and utter vacancy. My entirety as a person becomes consumed with sadness.
The other day, a close friend told me he appreciated me so much, and all I could do was feel sad. Why? Why couldn't I just be content with the fact that somebody cared about me? And even though I was lonely, and I felt like not a single person in the world could be there for me, he tried. He honestly tried to be there for me and understand.
I guess it all goes back to what Liam said months and months ago, you choose happiness.
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The irony of this epiphany is making me sick to my stomach: I am my own worst enemy.
I'm loved for and cared for by so many people, but it can't keep me from moments like this. Moments at 2:45 in the morning where I'm left with nothing but complete and utter vacancy. My entirety as a person becomes consumed with sadness.
The other day, a close friend told me he appreciated me so much, and all I could do was feel sad. Why? Why couldn't I just be content with the fact that somebody cared about me? And even though I was lonely, and I felt like not a single person in the world could be there for me, he tried. He honestly tried to be there for me and understand.
I guess it all goes back to what Liam said months and months ago, you choose happiness.
~
The irony of this epiphany is making me sick to my stomach: I am my own worst enemy.