somewhere lost in the darkness
title: somewhere lost in the darkness [1/2]
summary: when his eyeliner’s on, he’s like a total different person. he’s like an angel in the morning, a devil when night falls.
rated: M
[2013.04.03] 11.02pm
chanyeol: baek, where are you?
[2013.04.03] 11.62pm
chanyeol: baek, I want an answer damn it.
[2013.04.03] 11.10pm
chanyeol: byun baekhyun where the fuck are you. answer your damn phone bitch.
[2013.04.03] 11.14pm
chanyeol: byun baekhyun, when I see you, I swear I’m going to kill the fuck outta of you and kill you again. so you better answer your damn phone right now.
“BB, your phone has been vibrating non-stop. you sure you don’t want to answer that call”
“it’s probably my annoying ex-boyfriend. now now now, eyes on me. I’m going to fuck you so hard you won’t even remember your name” baekhyun went down on the man infront of him causing the room to be filled with moans and sloppy sounds.
byun baekhyun, age 19. sophomore in college. super major cutie in school and everyone wants a piece of him. he’s the main vocalist of a band in school and well, he’s just well-love by everyone. but only one gets to have him.
park chanyeol. best friend AND boyfriend of baekhyun. chanyeol, also known as the happy virus in school. he’s in the student council ( really hard to believe because he’s all ditzy like ¾ of the time) put them together and they make the perfect combination.
“you two lovebirds, stop PDA-ing already. luhan’s in class and ugh I’m missing him already” sehun took a sip of his coffee and rolled his eyes at the lovebirds sitting in front of him.
“too bad luhan’s a year older huh. he’s busy preparing and gaining credits for graduation. he has no time for little sehunnie.” chanyeol mocked.
“don’t bother about what chanyeol said sehun ah. just a few more months then luhan’s all yours.” baekhyun reassured.
“yeah you’re right but for now please, get off each other and not stuff your tongue down each other’s throats. kyungsoo and jongin’s bad enough and now I even have to handle you guys too?”
chanyeol and baekhyun laughed at sehun’s complains before they’re willing to separate and eat their lunch properly.
that was baekhyun in the day.
eyeliner baekhyun wasn’t exactly like that. baekhyun’s father owed the loansharks $20,000. and the only way to repay these debts is to get a job with a high paying salary and he happened to chance upon this very one job. and eyeliner baekhyun is one without, let’s say a conscious. he’s a sex-fiend.
“uhhhh, mmore mo-ore, I can’t take it anymore, yes fuck me hard, harder.” baekhyun screams as he dug his nails into the other’s skin, leaving red marks which aren’t going away anytime soon.
“ugh yes BB, I’m going to come.” the other man moved faster and thrusts deeper into baekhyun causing baekhyun to go all crazy and screaming.
“sure sure, come now now now. let’s…together let’s.” baekhyun screamed and came, allowing the other man to ride out his orgasm, leaving them both breathless and sticky with cum and sweat.
“you-you are good BB. if only I can fuck you everyday” the man got up and head into the showers that was provided in the room.
“you only get to see me once a month you dirty old man. I’m leaving.” baekhyun put on his clothes and head out of the room. room 0506 was baekhyun’s workroom. and oh, he isn’t called baekhyun here, his alias: BB.
and that is baekhyun in the night.
chanyeol doesn’t know about eyeliner baekhyun. he doesn’t get suspicious nor does he ask baekhyun about this job of his because baekhyun is also a part timer in a little café. chanyeol studies there all the time while waiting for baekhyun to get off from work at 9pm sharp before heading home together.
“chanyeol…if uh, one day you found out that I’m not who I turn out to be and I’m a guy with tons of secrets and I’m not a good person…will you still love me?” baekhyun asked as they walked hand in hand under the moon-lit sky
“why that question?”
“just answer me.”
“I’ll love you no matter what. I’ll probably forgive you.” chanyeol stopped and took baekhyun hands in his. “you are byun baekhyun. I’ve been with you ever since we were kids. of course I’ll forgive you for everything that you’ve done wrong. to err is human, to forgive divine right?”
baekhyun chuckled. “are you imparting your student council wisdom unto me?”
“you need some of that my favourite vocalist in the whole entire world” chanyeol gave baekhyun a light peck on his cheek. “ see you tomorrow”
“yeah…see you.” baekhyun watches as the big giant( chanyeol)’s figures gets smaller and smaller before heading into his house.
[2013.03.12] 10.40pm
kris: ready for work BB?
baekhyun sigh as he reads the message. he hated his father so much. if it weren’t for him, he wouldn’t have to resort to such…such despicable means of earning money.
but one thing that baekhyun fears was that even if it was despicable, what’s scarier is that he likes it. he loves it. chanyeol would never do such a thing to baekhyun because he treasures him so much he wouldn’t go beyond making out.
so when baekhyun found a whole new level of what he thought was pleasure, he gave in. it was an addiction that wasn’t glorious and it was a secret between him and the night sky.
“baekhyun!” baekhyun looked when he heard his name being called by his ever so blithe boyfriend. “baekhyun, what are you doing? I didn’t see you during lunch time”
“chanyeol. oh uhm, I have to memorise this song that the band’s going to perform on Tuesday.” baekhyun passed the song lyrics to chanyeol.
“remember? that sounds like the perfect song for music night on Tuesday.” chanyeol pulled baekhyun closer.
“yeah. oh right, kyungsoo asked me for the location on Tuesday. we have to practice for at least an hour before we feel ready and so we decided to head down to the place straight.”
“cheshire bar.” baekhyun shot up from his seat wide eyed.
“I’m sorry what? cheshire bar?” chanyeol looked at baekhyun, confused.
“baek, what’s wrong with cheshire bar?” chanyeol stood up and cupped baekhyun’s pale face.
“oh” baekhyun picked up the lyrics scattered on the floor. “I’m surprised that the school allowed us to be performing at the bar. cheshire bar isn’t the safest place to be anyway. I heard rumours about the place that it’s uh, not safe.” baekhyun smiled at chanyeol reassuring him that he’s fine.
“well, we’ve thought about it and the equipment there are probably the best. don’t worry. the school’s going to book the entire place so it’s going to be filled with people whom we know” chanyeol picked up his files on the floor and held out his hand. “back to class baek?”
“yeah” baekhyun took chanyeol hands and gripped it tight. if chanyeol founds that baekhyun works there, it would be disastrous.
“oh BB! you’re done already?” kris passed a glass of lychee martini over to baekhyun.
“that old man couldn’t even last for 5 mins. I haven’t even had my share of fun yet. when’s the next one coming?” baekhyun whipped out his mirror to touch up on his eyeliner.
“apparently, that’s your last one for the night.”
“ooh bummer” baekhyun drank his lychee martini in one shot.
-ring-
“welcome to cheshire bar!” kris shouted from the bar counter while throwing the different shakers in mid air.
baekhyun didn’t know whether it was pure luck or maybe God’s on his side. he turned and saw chanyeol together with his other student council mates entering the bar.
“fuck kris, hide me.” baekhyun climbed over the bar counter and squat down beside kris’s leg.
“hey what the fuck. get out.” kris stopped what he was doing and stared at baekhyun’s weird behaviour.
“no no, my boyfriend’s here. if he finds out that I work here or why I’m here even, then I’m done for” baekhyun curled up into a ball shape while squatting, hoping that kris would have a heart and not expose him.
“who knew that BB would have a heart too?” kris smirked.
“shut up and help me. and chase him out pronto.”
“hey welcome! what do you want to drink?” kris asked flashing his ever so charming smile.
chanyeol doesn’t drink. he doesn’t. baekhyun thought to himself, going through all of chanyeol likes and dislikes and things that chanyeol will and will not do. he knows chanyeol, he knows him.
“sorry I don’t drink. I’m here for some enquires about booking this place for tomorrow?” baekhyun smiled when he heard chanyeol saying that. he’s really an A star student huh.
“oh right.” kris looked down and mouth to baekhyun. “your boyfriend’s a noob-ouch!” that ouch certainly didn’t come out as plan.
“I’m sorry, ouch?” chanyeol questioned.
“oh no no, I knocked my leg onto the something and as you were saying?” kris gave dagger stares at baekhyun who was laughing behind the bar counter.
after approximately 45 mins, chanyeol was finally done and left. baekhyun swore it was the longest 45 mins of his entire life. chanyeol is one who talks a lot because he’s really precise about the things that he does and he’s a perfectionist(even though he doesn’t look like one)
“you have a hottie boyfriend and you work in such an industry? what would happen if he ever finds out.” kris questioned baekhyun while wiping the glass cups.
“he will never find out and even if he did then so be it. I did this because I had reasons and reason triumphs over chanyeol’s love for me. there. happy now?” baekhyun left a $50 note on the bar counter and went off. “oh right, pretend that you don’t know me. the BB that you see now won’t be the BB you know on Tuesday, got it?”
“sure sure byun baekhyun” kris called out.
“that’s BB for you mr kris!” baekhyun gave kris the finger before leaving the bar.
later that night, baekhyun returns home and find his father sober for the very first time in hmm, 2 years? baekhyun had very strained relationship with his father thanks to the huge sum of debt he owed and for chasing his mother out who left baekhyun behind.
“baekhyun ah, do you have money” his father managed to slur the words out.
“I’ve been slogging my whole entire life trying to pay off your fucking debts and you’re asking me for money? well, here’s the thing, I don’t have any money. okay? and even if I do, I would never hand it over to you.” baekhyun threw his bag onto the floor and head towards his room.
“I’m your father!” baekhyun’s father turned baekhyun around and slapped him, hard, causing him to lose balance and falling onto the ground.
“you were never my father!” baekhyun screamed out loud not caring whether the neighbours heard it or not. he can lose his good boy impression for all he care. all he wants right now is to get away from this stranger who he had blood relations with. baekhyun used every ounce of his strength to stand up, grabbed his bag and ran out of the house with his father screaming and shouting how he would burn the house down or killing him if he ever comes back.
[2013.03.19] 12.38am
to chanyeol: chanyeol, I want to see you now please please please.
baekhyun wants chanyeol, no. he needs chanyeol.
[2013.03.19] 12.41am
chanyeol: where are you? go to the park, I’ll meet you there.
thank god for chanyeol. baekhyun’s breaking apart from all these family/persona issues. drunkard father who’s never sober, his promiscuous job that he has to hide it from everyone especially chanyeol and himself, who can’t stop working because of his never ending desires which he has to control when he’s with chanyeol because all he wants is for chanyeol to take him whenever they almost go past beyond intense making out.
“baekhyun! what happened!” chanyeol, panting like he just ran 10km during physical education.
“chanyeol, I hate my dad. I hate my life and I hate that…and I hate that I-I, I hate everything.” baekhyun burst into tears before hurling himself in chanyeol’s chest.
“hush now hush. everything’s going to be alright. I’m here now aren’t I?” chanyeol smoothed out baekhyun’s hair while baekhyun sobs.
“chanyeol, I love you more than anything in the world so please, don’t hate me” baekhyun managed to choke out inbetween sobs.
“I won’t hate you, ever okay?” chanyeol cupped baekhyun’s face and kissed him, hoping that it would make him feel better.
“thank you chanyeol. thank you” baekhyun calmed down and hugged chanyeol, as if as it’s going to be the last time he sees him.
“you wanna stay over at my place? you can’t just stay out the whole day without resting. your performance’s today. get some rest, come over okay?” baekhyun nods and followed chanyeol home for the night.
baekhyun puts on make up, eyeliner and a tinge of lipstick for the band’s performance. It’s music night and right now, he’s panicking that someone might recognise him while singing and call him out. but then again, he thoughts. the school booked the whole place for them so it’s kinda impossible that he might see some of his clients here. except for kris , the several other managers and the staff who were working on that night know the existence of the darker and needier baekhyun.
“baekhyun you ready?” chanyeol pops by backstage to check on baekhyun. “you look pretty with that eyeliner on baek”
“I do? I don’t know how I look like. I probably look like a clown right now. make up isn’t exactly my thing” baekhyun lied. he has to. he thinks, he’s been lying to chanyeol for almost everything so it’s just adding one more, it won’t hurt.
“yes you do baby. now go out there and rock the stage okay?” chanyeol fixed baekhyun’s hair and kissed baekhyun on the lips. shit, no not now. eyeliner baekhyun isn’t supposed to come out today.
baekhyun grabs chanyeol and leans in deeper, slipping a tongue in, surprising chanyeol. “woah, what’s gotten into you baek. people are staring.”
fuck, he probably scare chanyeol now. he looked past chanyeol’s tall shoulders and saw kris staring behind the curtains smirking.
“I’ll be going now. good luck make out. it’s healthy and it gave me courage boost” baekhyun put on his ear monitor and went out, receiving cheers from the sea of people down below.
“I’m baekhyun and this is my band. we’re gonna have fun tonight, are you ready to roll?” the crowd screams in response and baekhyun starts singing his very first song.
the hours went by and finally it’s down to the last song. the crowd, now exhausted after jumping up and down for a few hours, are seated at the various tables.
“this song uhm, my band chose it and I think it’s a really meaningful song for me, personally.” baekhyun took a deep breath. “remember, by kari kimmel”
Come closer
Breathe deeper
Just take it in
Make love to
Each other
Over and over again
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
One moment imprinted
Inside my mind
Could there be
more to this love
or will it be left behind?
'Cause if it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
remember it all
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
baekhyun opened his eyes and saw chanyeol staring at him, smiling like he just saw his son graduated or something. “you were great” chanyeol mouthed, causing baekhyun to tear a little.
“that’s all and I hope you enjoy the rest of night” baekhyun and his band stood up, gave a 30secs bow and went backstage.
“wow, byun baekhyun, I never knew you had that in you. I’ve heard your screams but your voice is just wow” kris snuck up and whispered into baekhyun’s ear.
“kris, fuck off. I’m not supposed to know you” baekhyun looked around, making sure that no one saw his interaction with kris.
“eyeliner baekhyun seems pretty needy today huh?” kris gave pat on baekhyun’s back and went out.
“fuck” baekhyun cursed under his breath.
“baekhyun?” chanyeol popped his head in through the curtains and smiled. “great work today. you were stunning.”
“chanyeol. thank you” baekhyun walked over to pull the rest of chnayeol’s body in and kissed him. it wasn’t a needy kiss. it was more like a kiss of gratitude. a kiss that made baekhyun forget all his troubles. a kiss that seems to be telling baekhyun, it’s okay and everything’s going to be fine, his secret is safe and chanyeol loves him.
“come over tonight?” baekhyun spoke, breaking the kiss.
“baekhyun, I-uh, I’m busy tonight. I have to settle some stuff after this so I’m sorry.” baekhyun seem to have caught on chanyeol’s deprecation on the idea of inviting him over because he knows that coming over would lead to crazy make out session and who knows, sex which clearly does not exist in chanyeol’s dictionary(yet).
“I understand, it’s fine. I have something to do tonight as well so I was just trying my luck” baekhyun smiles let go off chanyeol to coil up the wires.
“baek, maybe next time I will be ready” chanyeol spoke in a soft voice.
“it’s fine! we’re only 19. sex is too adult for you…and me” baekhyun quickly added. “now run off. I’ll leave first okay? I need sleep and all this make up off before I go crazy”
“yeah, take care okay? I’ll see you tomorrow in school” chanyeol gave baekhyun a light hug.
“yeah bye” baekhyun didn’t went home after that. he was in the staff room with one of cheshire bar’s staff getting on. he was his client and since baekhyun’s here and chanyeol doesn’t want to have sex with him, why miss the chance? having sex with this guy means 2 things.
1. getting his needs satisfied and 2. money.
what baekhyun doesn’t know is that chanyeol was busy finding kris who somehow disappeared, only to find him standing outside the staff room, much to kris’s dismay.
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summary: when his eyeliner’s on, he’s like a total different person. he’s like an angel in the morning, a devil when night falls.
rated: M
[2013.04.03] 11.02pm
chanyeol: baek, where are you?
[2013.04.03] 11.62pm
chanyeol: baek, I want an answer damn it.
[2013.04.03] 11.10pm
chanyeol: byun baekhyun where the fuck are you. answer your damn phone bitch.
[2013.04.03] 11.14pm
chanyeol: byun baekhyun, when I see you, I swear I’m going to kill the fuck outta of you and kill you again. so you better answer your damn phone right now.
“BB, your phone has been vibrating non-stop. you sure you don’t want to answer that call”
“it’s probably my annoying ex-boyfriend. now now now, eyes on me. I’m going to fuck you so hard you won’t even remember your name” baekhyun went down on the man infront of him causing the room to be filled with moans and sloppy sounds.
byun baekhyun, age 19. sophomore in college. super major cutie in school and everyone wants a piece of him. he’s the main vocalist of a band in school and well, he’s just well-love by everyone. but only one gets to have him.
park chanyeol. best friend AND boyfriend of baekhyun. chanyeol, also known as the happy virus in school. he’s in the student council ( really hard to believe because he’s all ditzy like ¾ of the time) put them together and they make the perfect combination.
“you two lovebirds, stop PDA-ing already. luhan’s in class and ugh I’m missing him already” sehun took a sip of his coffee and rolled his eyes at the lovebirds sitting in front of him.
“too bad luhan’s a year older huh. he’s busy preparing and gaining credits for graduation. he has no time for little sehunnie.” chanyeol mocked.
“don’t bother about what chanyeol said sehun ah. just a few more months then luhan’s all yours.” baekhyun reassured.
“yeah you’re right but for now please, get off each other and not stuff your tongue down each other’s throats. kyungsoo and jongin’s bad enough and now I even have to handle you guys too?”
chanyeol and baekhyun laughed at sehun’s complains before they’re willing to separate and eat their lunch properly.
that was baekhyun in the day.
eyeliner baekhyun wasn’t exactly like that. baekhyun’s father owed the loansharks $20,000. and the only way to repay these debts is to get a job with a high paying salary and he happened to chance upon this very one job. and eyeliner baekhyun is one without, let’s say a conscious. he’s a sex-fiend.
“uhhhh, mmore mo-ore, I can’t take it anymore, yes fuck me hard, harder.” baekhyun screams as he dug his nails into the other’s skin, leaving red marks which aren’t going away anytime soon.
“ugh yes BB, I’m going to come.” the other man moved faster and thrusts deeper into baekhyun causing baekhyun to go all crazy and screaming.
“sure sure, come now now now. let’s…together let’s.” baekhyun screamed and came, allowing the other man to ride out his orgasm, leaving them both breathless and sticky with cum and sweat.
“you-you are good BB. if only I can fuck you everyday” the man got up and head into the showers that was provided in the room.
“you only get to see me once a month you dirty old man. I’m leaving.” baekhyun put on his clothes and head out of the room. room 0506 was baekhyun’s workroom. and oh, he isn’t called baekhyun here, his alias: BB.
and that is baekhyun in the night.
chanyeol doesn’t know about eyeliner baekhyun. he doesn’t get suspicious nor does he ask baekhyun about this job of his because baekhyun is also a part timer in a little café. chanyeol studies there all the time while waiting for baekhyun to get off from work at 9pm sharp before heading home together.
“chanyeol…if uh, one day you found out that I’m not who I turn out to be and I’m a guy with tons of secrets and I’m not a good person…will you still love me?” baekhyun asked as they walked hand in hand under the moon-lit sky
“why that question?”
“just answer me.”
“I’ll love you no matter what. I’ll probably forgive you.” chanyeol stopped and took baekhyun hands in his. “you are byun baekhyun. I’ve been with you ever since we were kids. of course I’ll forgive you for everything that you’ve done wrong. to err is human, to forgive divine right?”
baekhyun chuckled. “are you imparting your student council wisdom unto me?”
“you need some of that my favourite vocalist in the whole entire world” chanyeol gave baekhyun a light peck on his cheek. “ see you tomorrow”
“yeah…see you.” baekhyun watches as the big giant( chanyeol)’s figures gets smaller and smaller before heading into his house.
[2013.03.12] 10.40pm
kris: ready for work BB?
baekhyun sigh as he reads the message. he hated his father so much. if it weren’t for him, he wouldn’t have to resort to such…such despicable means of earning money.
but one thing that baekhyun fears was that even if it was despicable, what’s scarier is that he likes it. he loves it. chanyeol would never do such a thing to baekhyun because he treasures him so much he wouldn’t go beyond making out.
so when baekhyun found a whole new level of what he thought was pleasure, he gave in. it was an addiction that wasn’t glorious and it was a secret between him and the night sky.
“baekhyun!” baekhyun looked when he heard his name being called by his ever so blithe boyfriend. “baekhyun, what are you doing? I didn’t see you during lunch time”
“chanyeol. oh uhm, I have to memorise this song that the band’s going to perform on Tuesday.” baekhyun passed the song lyrics to chanyeol.
“remember? that sounds like the perfect song for music night on Tuesday.” chanyeol pulled baekhyun closer.
“yeah. oh right, kyungsoo asked me for the location on Tuesday. we have to practice for at least an hour before we feel ready and so we decided to head down to the place straight.”
“cheshire bar.” baekhyun shot up from his seat wide eyed.
“I’m sorry what? cheshire bar?” chanyeol looked at baekhyun, confused.
“baek, what’s wrong with cheshire bar?” chanyeol stood up and cupped baekhyun’s pale face.
“oh” baekhyun picked up the lyrics scattered on the floor. “I’m surprised that the school allowed us to be performing at the bar. cheshire bar isn’t the safest place to be anyway. I heard rumours about the place that it’s uh, not safe.” baekhyun smiled at chanyeol reassuring him that he’s fine.
“well, we’ve thought about it and the equipment there are probably the best. don’t worry. the school’s going to book the entire place so it’s going to be filled with people whom we know” chanyeol picked up his files on the floor and held out his hand. “back to class baek?”
“yeah” baekhyun took chanyeol hands and gripped it tight. if chanyeol founds that baekhyun works there, it would be disastrous.
“oh BB! you’re done already?” kris passed a glass of lychee martini over to baekhyun.
“that old man couldn’t even last for 5 mins. I haven’t even had my share of fun yet. when’s the next one coming?” baekhyun whipped out his mirror to touch up on his eyeliner.
“apparently, that’s your last one for the night.”
“ooh bummer” baekhyun drank his lychee martini in one shot.
-ring-
“welcome to cheshire bar!” kris shouted from the bar counter while throwing the different shakers in mid air.
baekhyun didn’t know whether it was pure luck or maybe God’s on his side. he turned and saw chanyeol together with his other student council mates entering the bar.
“fuck kris, hide me.” baekhyun climbed over the bar counter and squat down beside kris’s leg.
“hey what the fuck. get out.” kris stopped what he was doing and stared at baekhyun’s weird behaviour.
“no no, my boyfriend’s here. if he finds out that I work here or why I’m here even, then I’m done for” baekhyun curled up into a ball shape while squatting, hoping that kris would have a heart and not expose him.
“who knew that BB would have a heart too?” kris smirked.
“shut up and help me. and chase him out pronto.”
“hey welcome! what do you want to drink?” kris asked flashing his ever so charming smile.
chanyeol doesn’t drink. he doesn’t. baekhyun thought to himself, going through all of chanyeol likes and dislikes and things that chanyeol will and will not do. he knows chanyeol, he knows him.
“sorry I don’t drink. I’m here for some enquires about booking this place for tomorrow?” baekhyun smiled when he heard chanyeol saying that. he’s really an A star student huh.
“oh right.” kris looked down and mouth to baekhyun. “your boyfriend’s a noob-ouch!” that ouch certainly didn’t come out as plan.
“I’m sorry, ouch?” chanyeol questioned.
“oh no no, I knocked my leg onto the something and as you were saying?” kris gave dagger stares at baekhyun who was laughing behind the bar counter.
after approximately 45 mins, chanyeol was finally done and left. baekhyun swore it was the longest 45 mins of his entire life. chanyeol is one who talks a lot because he’s really precise about the things that he does and he’s a perfectionist(even though he doesn’t look like one)
“you have a hottie boyfriend and you work in such an industry? what would happen if he ever finds out.” kris questioned baekhyun while wiping the glass cups.
“he will never find out and even if he did then so be it. I did this because I had reasons and reason triumphs over chanyeol’s love for me. there. happy now?” baekhyun left a $50 note on the bar counter and went off. “oh right, pretend that you don’t know me. the BB that you see now won’t be the BB you know on Tuesday, got it?”
“sure sure byun baekhyun” kris called out.
“that’s BB for you mr kris!” baekhyun gave kris the finger before leaving the bar.
later that night, baekhyun returns home and find his father sober for the very first time in hmm, 2 years? baekhyun had very strained relationship with his father thanks to the huge sum of debt he owed and for chasing his mother out who left baekhyun behind.
“baekhyun ah, do you have money” his father managed to slur the words out.
“I’ve been slogging my whole entire life trying to pay off your fucking debts and you’re asking me for money? well, here’s the thing, I don’t have any money. okay? and even if I do, I would never hand it over to you.” baekhyun threw his bag onto the floor and head towards his room.
“I’m your father!” baekhyun’s father turned baekhyun around and slapped him, hard, causing him to lose balance and falling onto the ground.
“you were never my father!” baekhyun screamed out loud not caring whether the neighbours heard it or not. he can lose his good boy impression for all he care. all he wants right now is to get away from this stranger who he had blood relations with. baekhyun used every ounce of his strength to stand up, grabbed his bag and ran out of the house with his father screaming and shouting how he would burn the house down or killing him if he ever comes back.
[2013.03.19] 12.38am
to chanyeol: chanyeol, I want to see you now please please please.
baekhyun wants chanyeol, no. he needs chanyeol.
[2013.03.19] 12.41am
chanyeol: where are you? go to the park, I’ll meet you there.
thank god for chanyeol. baekhyun’s breaking apart from all these family/persona issues. drunkard father who’s never sober, his promiscuous job that he has to hide it from everyone especially chanyeol and himself, who can’t stop working because of his never ending desires which he has to control when he’s with chanyeol because all he wants is for chanyeol to take him whenever they almost go past beyond intense making out.
“baekhyun! what happened!” chanyeol, panting like he just ran 10km during physical education.
“chanyeol, I hate my dad. I hate my life and I hate that…and I hate that I-I, I hate everything.” baekhyun burst into tears before hurling himself in chanyeol’s chest.
“hush now hush. everything’s going to be alright. I’m here now aren’t I?” chanyeol smoothed out baekhyun’s hair while baekhyun sobs.
“chanyeol, I love you more than anything in the world so please, don’t hate me” baekhyun managed to choke out inbetween sobs.
“I won’t hate you, ever okay?” chanyeol cupped baekhyun’s face and kissed him, hoping that it would make him feel better.
“thank you chanyeol. thank you” baekhyun calmed down and hugged chanyeol, as if as it’s going to be the last time he sees him.
“you wanna stay over at my place? you can’t just stay out the whole day without resting. your performance’s today. get some rest, come over okay?” baekhyun nods and followed chanyeol home for the night.
baekhyun puts on make up, eyeliner and a tinge of lipstick for the band’s performance. It’s music night and right now, he’s panicking that someone might recognise him while singing and call him out. but then again, he thoughts. the school booked the whole place for them so it’s kinda impossible that he might see some of his clients here. except for kris , the several other managers and the staff who were working on that night know the existence of the darker and needier baekhyun.
“baekhyun you ready?” chanyeol pops by backstage to check on baekhyun. “you look pretty with that eyeliner on baek”
“I do? I don’t know how I look like. I probably look like a clown right now. make up isn’t exactly my thing” baekhyun lied. he has to. he thinks, he’s been lying to chanyeol for almost everything so it’s just adding one more, it won’t hurt.
“yes you do baby. now go out there and rock the stage okay?” chanyeol fixed baekhyun’s hair and kissed baekhyun on the lips. shit, no not now. eyeliner baekhyun isn’t supposed to come out today.
baekhyun grabs chanyeol and leans in deeper, slipping a tongue in, surprising chanyeol. “woah, what’s gotten into you baek. people are staring.”
fuck, he probably scare chanyeol now. he looked past chanyeol’s tall shoulders and saw kris staring behind the curtains smirking.
“I’ll be going now. good luck make out. it’s healthy and it gave me courage boost” baekhyun put on his ear monitor and went out, receiving cheers from the sea of people down below.
“I’m baekhyun and this is my band. we’re gonna have fun tonight, are you ready to roll?” the crowd screams in response and baekhyun starts singing his very first song.
the hours went by and finally it’s down to the last song. the crowd, now exhausted after jumping up and down for a few hours, are seated at the various tables.
“this song uhm, my band chose it and I think it’s a really meaningful song for me, personally.” baekhyun took a deep breath. “remember, by kari kimmel”
Come closer
Breathe deeper
Just take it in
Make love to
Each other
Over and over again
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
One moment imprinted
Inside my mind
Could there be
more to this love
or will it be left behind?
'Cause if it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
If it's all I can take
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
remember it all
I'll remember it all,
remember it all
baekhyun opened his eyes and saw chanyeol staring at him, smiling like he just saw his son graduated or something. “you were great” chanyeol mouthed, causing baekhyun to tear a little.
“that’s all and I hope you enjoy the rest of night” baekhyun and his band stood up, gave a 30secs bow and went backstage.
“wow, byun baekhyun, I never knew you had that in you. I’ve heard your screams but your voice is just wow” kris snuck up and whispered into baekhyun’s ear.
“kris, fuck off. I’m not supposed to know you” baekhyun looked around, making sure that no one saw his interaction with kris.
“eyeliner baekhyun seems pretty needy today huh?” kris gave pat on baekhyun’s back and went out.
“fuck” baekhyun cursed under his breath.
“baekhyun?” chanyeol popped his head in through the curtains and smiled. “great work today. you were stunning.”
“chanyeol. thank you” baekhyun walked over to pull the rest of chnayeol’s body in and kissed him. it wasn’t a needy kiss. it was more like a kiss of gratitude. a kiss that made baekhyun forget all his troubles. a kiss that seems to be telling baekhyun, it’s okay and everything’s going to be fine, his secret is safe and chanyeol loves him.
“come over tonight?” baekhyun spoke, breaking the kiss.
“baekhyun, I-uh, I’m busy tonight. I have to settle some stuff after this so I’m sorry.” baekhyun seem to have caught on chanyeol’s deprecation on the idea of inviting him over because he knows that coming over would lead to crazy make out session and who knows, sex which clearly does not exist in chanyeol’s dictionary(yet).
“I understand, it’s fine. I have something to do tonight as well so I was just trying my luck” baekhyun smiles let go off chanyeol to coil up the wires.
“baek, maybe next time I will be ready” chanyeol spoke in a soft voice.
“it’s fine! we’re only 19. sex is too adult for you…and me” baekhyun quickly added. “now run off. I’ll leave first okay? I need sleep and all this make up off before I go crazy”
“yeah, take care okay? I’ll see you tomorrow in school” chanyeol gave baekhyun a light hug.
“yeah bye” baekhyun didn’t went home after that. he was in the staff room with one of cheshire bar’s staff getting on. he was his client and since baekhyun’s here and chanyeol doesn’t want to have sex with him, why miss the chance? having sex with this guy means 2 things.
1. getting his needs satisfied and 2. money.
what baekhyun doesn’t know is that chanyeol was busy finding kris who somehow disappeared, only to find him standing outside the staff room, much to kris’s dismay.
A/N: it's been awhile since I last wrote a story yeah? I have an asianfanfic with other stories so do drop by:)
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