a reflection
how times have changed.
i wept uncontrollably last night, and wanted to write abt it. as i was about to start, i saw the userpic of me and my family traveling to taiwan for holiday. it was really fun!
then, back to the present, i am having a hard time figuring out my next step.
ok. abt last night, i was watching an online drama halfway and, uncontrollably, i started weeping. i really was not prepared at all. nothing triggered it. for quite a while.
but as i wept, i did remember, i can't be too loud, lest my mum heard it and worry her.
i guess, the weeping is 'cos of 2 failed interviews. i had experienced this stage before. quitting without a backup plan, and failing interviews. back then, i did not know what to do and spent money on courses. later on, i was very lucky to get a job again, which is not related to the courses i took. and the job was the highest paying one even.
after that, i switched to another field which did not work out well for me. disappointed, i left it, without a backup plan too.
the interview i went for yesterday highlighted the fact that the certification i had gotten was almost 10 years ago. i thought abt it just now. i can still take the route of getting the certification and then get a job. but frankly, will tat be really what i want?
if technology does make me happy, will i not have tried to understand more about the technologies used in my jobs so far? but i actually was not keen on it. i was even pretty used to the old school style. but when i see a new style, i will want to try my best to use it, as it is ultimately the new, and seemingly better, way of doing it. simply put, my prime time in learning new technology seems to be over?
it has brought me much joy and pride some time ago. but it could be time for me to try something new?
i am really not sure...
i wept uncontrollably last night, and wanted to write abt it. as i was about to start, i saw the userpic of me and my family traveling to taiwan for holiday. it was really fun!
then, back to the present, i am having a hard time figuring out my next step.
ok. abt last night, i was watching an online drama halfway and, uncontrollably, i started weeping. i really was not prepared at all. nothing triggered it. for quite a while.
but as i wept, i did remember, i can't be too loud, lest my mum heard it and worry her.
i guess, the weeping is 'cos of 2 failed interviews. i had experienced this stage before. quitting without a backup plan, and failing interviews. back then, i did not know what to do and spent money on courses. later on, i was very lucky to get a job again, which is not related to the courses i took. and the job was the highest paying one even.
after that, i switched to another field which did not work out well for me. disappointed, i left it, without a backup plan too.
the interview i went for yesterday highlighted the fact that the certification i had gotten was almost 10 years ago. i thought abt it just now. i can still take the route of getting the certification and then get a job. but frankly, will tat be really what i want?
if technology does make me happy, will i not have tried to understand more about the technologies used in my jobs so far? but i actually was not keen on it. i was even pretty used to the old school style. but when i see a new style, i will want to try my best to use it, as it is ultimately the new, and seemingly better, way of doing it. simply put, my prime time in learning new technology seems to be over?
it has brought me much joy and pride some time ago. but it could be time for me to try something new?
i am really not sure...