if you like the smell of butt hole in the morning raise your hand
i haven't updated in a while, but neither has anyone else. everyone is useing that myspace shit. i have been tempted to get a myspace but i don't really know how it works so it would be all shitty and i don't think i need something else to distract me from not doing homework and shit. i was think about this the other day: will i remember homework on my death bed. will i think about it right before i die. will i be like man i hated that homework shit back in the day. then i thought about all this shit that i won't think about when i'm dying. will i think about any of this shit going on right now. will i remember all thes ppl from high school, from middle, from elementary. will i remember mr munson and all the stupid shit he says. will i remember all these plays that i did and all the fun times in rehersal. will i remember that time i forgot my line and sat there for an hour sweating and no one did anything. all this shit seems so important now but in the long run i won't remember alot of the stuff that happens now. i have only gone trough a fraction on my life. most of this stuff will be forgotten by my thirties. all this shit that i make such a big deal about now won't matter at all to my whole life. all the stupid drama that put on myself. i think we all go through so much needless drama when in the end we just wasted our time. do i think this is going to change me. no. if you really think about how small and insignifigent an individuals life is, even thousands of peoples lives, you realize that getting a B on your Eco test is not a big deal. the world has been around for Billions of years. we say that but we can't really comprehend it. humans have only been around for like 10,000 years. thats 1/100000 of earths time. thats nothing. then you take the average ife expectancy for americans at 75 and you are but an oxygen molecule in the ocean if that big. you don't matter. if you weren't here do you think the earth would care. fuck no. even if you die, what happens, we keep going. 3000 people died on september 11 and the world kept turning. when millions of dinosaurs were wiped out, did the earth say "well i give up". no fucking way. when one person dies the percentage of ppl who it effects is so small they don't even have a fraction for it. its maybe 50 ppl who are truly effected over billions of ppl on earth now and ever. so many people die every day but the world could not care less. WE DON'T MATTER. I DON'T MATTER. YOU DON'T MATTER. all this bullshit drama that we fill our lives with is more piontless than a gay guy at a lesbian party. oh well shows over. i'm done. i had a good run.
stev
stev