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After a long phone conversation with my boyfriend, I realized a lot of things... things that were too complicated to write full paragraphs about, so I decided to do some unconventional journaling. I listened to 4 different songs while reading the lyrics, then typed some thoughts next to lyrics that really spoke to me. I understand that everyone will hear lyrics differently, so my thoughts on one set may be different than what someone else might have heard. But that's okay; all that matters is that my interpretation helped me somehow. My thoughts are in green. [P.S.- I guess commas are omitted when copied and pasted from my Word document. I did not go back and check for comma errors, so sorry, this blog is very grammatically incorrect.]
Let Go- Frou Frou
Drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you Time is moving forward whether I want it to or not.
Excuse me too busy you're writing a tragedy Im forever mentally listing all that is wrong in my world.
These mess-ups/ You bubble-wrap I either rationalize (bubble-wrap) bad things (mess-ups) that I experience (She yelled at me and it hurt. But she was having a bad day. I should be sympathetic.) or I ignore/repress (bubble wrap) them, so
When you've no idea what you're like a lot of times I dont really experience/ deal with my feelings.
So, let go Its okay to express myself.
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown Ill feel so much better when I express my feelings.
So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And then advances with the form When I express my feelings, I can deal with them. And they wont turn into problems that turn into setbacks that keep me from my goals,
So, honey, back for more
Can't you see that all the stuff's essential?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later No putting it off. I have to deal- now.
Now you can wait
You roll your eyes
We've twenty seconds to comply
You gotta Be Desree
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds I should never settle for things that dont work for me and then complain when they dontinstead, I should challenge and change things that come my way.
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears I've seen my share of this. Its okay that I've had relationship problems in the past that have caused me to get hurt, but thats okay. I understand now, however, that it is not okay to keep getting hurt. If a relationship is unhealthy or not working for me, I have to work to fix it or get out of it.
Go ahead release your fears Sometimes Id like others to notice that I need support, and Id like them to give me support, but that can be unrealistic. Just because others might not notice that I need help does not mean that they dont care. Instead, I have to know that it is okay to ask for help when I need it.
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry Again, its okay to feel upset.
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time Theres no need to rush; I know that I will eventually figure things out.
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view Not everyone sees things the same way. I might be upset about something my mother said or did, but she may not think that see did anything wrong. Likewise, I may say something I think is innocent, and others may be offended.
My oh my heh, hey
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning I understand these lines, but I cant explain them. I guess perhaps that even if I am feeling down or confused, life goes on. And so do I?
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face I need to take care of my problems?
"Unwritten"- Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I am not whole, I am not complete. Although my previous actions and deeds do define me in part, they do not make up my whole self, because
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned there is so much more that I can achieve. I shouldn't dwell on the past so much.
Staring at the blank page before you St. Xavier.
Open up the dirty window All of the negative thoughts I have had, all of the drama and bad fortune, all of the things that have kept me down.
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find Yay, sun!
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it I have so many goals and things that I want to do I think that this time, I will actually achieve them.
Release your inhibitions Im afraid of not achieving them; of not reaching my goals. But why? I havent even started yet.
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you No one else can motivate me as much as I can.
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips Its all up to me.
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open Self-explanatory, I think.
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines Its okay to do things differently its perfectly okay to be different, to take a stand for something I believe in, to be considered weird [in reality, people probably dont think � of what I think they think about me.
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way Ive been putting a lot of pressure on myself to not screw up at SXU to be that girl who has it all together, who is helpful and hardworking and happy and smiling and so on. I need to take all that pressure off myself because no one is perfect, especially not freshman year. All of us are going to feel nervous or awkward at some point. And all that stress of perfection is no way to live.
Dare You to Move- Switchfoot
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next What happens next? See, I know that I am in control now. I get it now, and I can no longer blame things on my past (family, missed opportunities, lack of confidence or understanding and so on).
I dare you to move Move?
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor A challenge a challenge to let go of my frustrations; to pick myself up and begin to help myself change what makes me so unhappy.
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened Instead of being afraid of falling into my old habits (not studying, procrastinating) and actually falling back into them, or being afraid of the unknown, I should consider Saint Xavier a new start.
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistence
The tension is here Yes, indeed.
Between who you are and you could be Because I am the only one who can change things for myself, because I am the only one who can make myself happy, I am the only thing standing in the way of the new me.
Between how it is and how it should be
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here Me.