Grr....more stress
When does it ever really end? All the sorrow, all the pain, all the missed memories? When does it just stop? So far as I can tell, never...
I really miss her and I hate being single. Thing is, i'm to chicken shit to actually step up and face her. I feel that I should let her come to me so that i'm not forcing anything onto her. Thrown out a few ideas and some people have agreed that I should do them while others have disagreed. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Been talking to my mom more lately about me joining Army Reserve. I can tell she doesn't want me to but I can also tell that she knows it's something that I want to do. I hate our government, not going to lie. I'm not enlisting for them, i'm enlisting for the innocent people who go to bed at night wondering what will happen to them. I hate seeing the innocent suffer, it just isn't fair. I'm not afraid to die for them, because I sure as hell won't die for Bush.
I'm so confused with what I want to do after high school. I thought I knew but now I feel so unsure. I've been feeling unsure about a lot of things lately. Everythings so mixed up and i'm trying to sort it all out but it just isn't working for me. I think I just need to take a long long long break away from everything and going camping with my dad and uncle. Just a couple of guys hanging out doing whatever we please. Maybe that will give me the clear head that I need to think about this stuff.
Well, if you read this, thanks for "listening" so to say about the problems i'm facing right now. I have some of the best friends out there, you guys deserve more than you actually get.
I really miss her and I hate being single. Thing is, i'm to chicken shit to actually step up and face her. I feel that I should let her come to me so that i'm not forcing anything onto her. Thrown out a few ideas and some people have agreed that I should do them while others have disagreed. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Been talking to my mom more lately about me joining Army Reserve. I can tell she doesn't want me to but I can also tell that she knows it's something that I want to do. I hate our government, not going to lie. I'm not enlisting for them, i'm enlisting for the innocent people who go to bed at night wondering what will happen to them. I hate seeing the innocent suffer, it just isn't fair. I'm not afraid to die for them, because I sure as hell won't die for Bush.
I'm so confused with what I want to do after high school. I thought I knew but now I feel so unsure. I've been feeling unsure about a lot of things lately. Everythings so mixed up and i'm trying to sort it all out but it just isn't working for me. I think I just need to take a long long long break away from everything and going camping with my dad and uncle. Just a couple of guys hanging out doing whatever we please. Maybe that will give me the clear head that I need to think about this stuff.
Well, if you read this, thanks for "listening" so to say about the problems i'm facing right now. I have some of the best friends out there, you guys deserve more than you actually get.