the story of a never ending tragedy. unwinding and willing to forget.
he brought me to tears. He only made me cry. he made me cry out of laughter. scream in pain of my stomach hurting so badly. he was my safe keep. it was unbelievable. he was unbelievable. his face. i remember the trance i went into when i first noticed it. it paralyzed me.his eyes. he had this glow. luminescent. oh if only you could see this. rare oppertunities. he was loved. hide and seek was our favorite game. i hid my feelings. and he'd seek them. but one does tire after a while. i can't put the blame on him. just knowing he was here. and he was mine. all mine. i wanted to be so selfish. and hide him away. mine to keep forever. nobody elses but my own. tucked in a box and i bring him out to look at. well that box is empty. and it's filled with remorse. and everytime i take it out. that's all i have to look at. remorse in a bitter wrapper of self hatred. i hate myself. you messed up first but i went into overdrive. i pulled and pinched. i became what i wish i hadn't. and it changed me. demons. ah those demons. you don't see them. i do. thank God you don't see them. you don't need it. a burden i bare. one that i can't put on you anymore. it was my fault. My fault.