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hii,
nothing really to update on but ive got homework to do and it deserves to die so this is my excuse for not doing it!
ive been having to think alot recentley and im really confused. i have some decisions to make and not stupid decisions like what to wear or what im doing at the weekend but life changing decisions and i don't know if i'm ready to make to make such big decisions. different people are telling me different things but when i really think about the reasons they've gave me they're mainly to benefit them, not me. i dont't know what to do. im happy with my life but for how much longer will that last? i don't know whether i should take a chance or not. but if i do it will effect other people around me, not just me. also if i make the wrong decision there's no going back..also i feel pressure to change and be how people want me to be and im sorry but i can't do it. im me and i can't change but people just wont seem to accept that. i also dont want the pain of my mum and dad brought back from the past. . . . i dont want them near each other. it was hard for to cope with for 3 years of my life and now that i have my life back i wouldn't want to go through it again.
love to alll
*M y h e a r t h e l d i n t h e p a l m o f y o u r h a n d* <3
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nothing really to update on but ive got homework to do and it deserves to die so this is my excuse for not doing it!
ive been having to think alot recentley and im really confused. i have some decisions to make and not stupid decisions like what to wear or what im doing at the weekend but life changing decisions and i don't know if i'm ready to make to make such big decisions. different people are telling me different things but when i really think about the reasons they've gave me they're mainly to benefit them, not me. i dont't know what to do. im happy with my life but for how much longer will that last? i don't know whether i should take a chance or not. but if i do it will effect other people around me, not just me. also if i make the wrong decision there's no going back..also i feel pressure to change and be how people want me to be and im sorry but i can't do it. im me and i can't change but people just wont seem to accept that. i also dont want the pain of my mum and dad brought back from the past. . . . i dont want them near each other. it was hard for to cope with for 3 years of my life and now that i have my life back i wouldn't want to go through it again.
love to alll
*M y h e a r t h e l d i n t h e p a l m o f y o u r h a n d* <3
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