this is about kissies.
to me, first kisses are important. my first real real kiss was with ashley alexander in ninth grade. i did not like that kiss.
i have been 3 peoples first kisses. Well, ok, practically first kisses...for two of three of them. But, horrible unwanted occurrances aside, i was the first.
And I wonder if they regret it at all, teh way I regret mine.
i suppose jon doesn't. the other boys, well, i probably just won't ever know. and i'm fine with that. it's just...i hope they don't regret it.
and i've kissed, let's see how many boys...
ashley, erik, dave, tyler, andrew, dan, russ, jon
that seems like a lot to me.
ashley was my first kiss, and i didn't want ot kiss him. i repeatedly said i didn't understand what was good about kissing, becasue i felt nothing when i did kiss him.
erik...was...brilliant. and then he broke my heart. later i broke his heart. life is fair, isn't it?
dave...well dave was a wierd fucking situation, that's for sure. i don't have anything good or bad to say about it. i did NOT cheat on dave. ever.
tyler was also a wierd situation. i thought that he liked me, he told me he did, but he never relaly did. so i was always trying to kiss him and he was always like back off bitch. that wasn't cool. so basiclaly he thought i was cute but he also didn't like me as a person, and couldn't get over it. o well. i offered to give him head like 50 times. that's funny. he never accepted. well that's good. if tyler and i were actually going out, i would have been cheating on him, but we weren't, so that's good.
andrew, well...yeah. that was bad and good in it's own way. i guess the kisses themselves were never really that good, except for maybe a month or so when we were really happy. i cheated on andrew...multiple times. multiple multiple. but we weren't going out, and we weren't exclusive in any way. it just FELT that we should be. and when i was with others, it was exclusive. so yeah. i guess i was cheating. let's see...1,2,3...3 times.
now let me qualify that:he also cheated on me. jamie gave him head a week after my birthday. that's fucked up!
people i helped andrew cheat on: any girl he was with last year after we broke up for the final time. i believe that is 2 or 3 people. no i did not feel bad about it.
dan...dan made me happy when i kissed him because i felt comfortable. most likely cause we were bestfriends. i fucked that up. good job briana! thanks briana! i cheated on dan. a lot. even though we only went out for a short period of time. dan never cheated on me. dan was faithful to me when we weren't even going out. dan is a good boy. squirt is way lucky that they are happy as pie. well i assume they still are.
russ was a sweet boy and i think i broke his little heart. but it's all settled and better nwo and he's made tons of new friends and i'm happy for him. YAY.
jon: well, hello, love of my fucking life! each kiss is like eating chocolate or cheesecake or licking ice or having the sun poor down on you when it's 70 degrees out or clouds at nite surrounding the moon. what i'm trying to say is they are perfect.
good experiences with kissing: erik, andrew, dan, jon.
bad experiences with kiss: ashley, erik, tyler, andrew
experiences which were neither: dave.
people i regret kissing: dave,dan,tyler
people i wish i regretted kissing: andrew always, erik once
people i will never forget, for reasons more than kissing, that i have kissed: erik, jonathan laren martin.
people who i hurt: erik, andrew,dave, dan, russ
people who hurt me: andrew, erik
people who have changed me, who i have kissed: ashley, erik, andrew, dan, russ, jon
people who i have, at least for a moment, changed: erik, andrew, russ, jon
people who have treated me well: ashley, dave, andrew, dan, russ, jon
people who i have treated well: ashley, erik, andrew, jon
people who have treated me extremely poorly: tyler, andrew
people i have treated extremely poorly: dan, russ, erik
people who have deserved it: erik
so, kisses...they are important. to me at least. blahblahblah. i need tos leep
i have been 3 peoples first kisses. Well, ok, practically first kisses...for two of three of them. But, horrible unwanted occurrances aside, i was the first.
And I wonder if they regret it at all, teh way I regret mine.
i suppose jon doesn't. the other boys, well, i probably just won't ever know. and i'm fine with that. it's just...i hope they don't regret it.
and i've kissed, let's see how many boys...
ashley, erik, dave, tyler, andrew, dan, russ, jon
that seems like a lot to me.
ashley was my first kiss, and i didn't want ot kiss him. i repeatedly said i didn't understand what was good about kissing, becasue i felt nothing when i did kiss him.
erik...was...brilliant. and then he broke my heart. later i broke his heart. life is fair, isn't it?
dave...well dave was a wierd fucking situation, that's for sure. i don't have anything good or bad to say about it. i did NOT cheat on dave. ever.
tyler was also a wierd situation. i thought that he liked me, he told me he did, but he never relaly did. so i was always trying to kiss him and he was always like back off bitch. that wasn't cool. so basiclaly he thought i was cute but he also didn't like me as a person, and couldn't get over it. o well. i offered to give him head like 50 times. that's funny. he never accepted. well that's good. if tyler and i were actually going out, i would have been cheating on him, but we weren't, so that's good.
andrew, well...yeah. that was bad and good in it's own way. i guess the kisses themselves were never really that good, except for maybe a month or so when we were really happy. i cheated on andrew...multiple times. multiple multiple. but we weren't going out, and we weren't exclusive in any way. it just FELT that we should be. and when i was with others, it was exclusive. so yeah. i guess i was cheating. let's see...1,2,3...3 times.
now let me qualify that:he also cheated on me. jamie gave him head a week after my birthday. that's fucked up!
people i helped andrew cheat on: any girl he was with last year after we broke up for the final time. i believe that is 2 or 3 people. no i did not feel bad about it.
dan...dan made me happy when i kissed him because i felt comfortable. most likely cause we were bestfriends. i fucked that up. good job briana! thanks briana! i cheated on dan. a lot. even though we only went out for a short period of time. dan never cheated on me. dan was faithful to me when we weren't even going out. dan is a good boy. squirt is way lucky that they are happy as pie. well i assume they still are.
russ was a sweet boy and i think i broke his little heart. but it's all settled and better nwo and he's made tons of new friends and i'm happy for him. YAY.
jon: well, hello, love of my fucking life! each kiss is like eating chocolate or cheesecake or licking ice or having the sun poor down on you when it's 70 degrees out or clouds at nite surrounding the moon. what i'm trying to say is they are perfect.
good experiences with kissing: erik, andrew, dan, jon.
bad experiences with kiss: ashley, erik, tyler, andrew
experiences which were neither: dave.
people i regret kissing: dave,dan,tyler
people i wish i regretted kissing: andrew always, erik once
people i will never forget, for reasons more than kissing, that i have kissed: erik, jonathan laren martin.
people who i hurt: erik, andrew,dave, dan, russ
people who hurt me: andrew, erik
people who have changed me, who i have kissed: ashley, erik, andrew, dan, russ, jon
people who i have, at least for a moment, changed: erik, andrew, russ, jon
people who have treated me well: ashley, dave, andrew, dan, russ, jon
people who i have treated well: ashley, erik, andrew, jon
people who have treated me extremely poorly: tyler, andrew
people i have treated extremely poorly: dan, russ, erik
people who have deserved it: erik
so, kisses...they are important. to me at least. blahblahblah. i need tos leep