I feel relieved!
Hi everybody!
Well, okay, this is my first entry so let's start with the basic introduction.
My name is Maria, I am 16 years old and I have anorexia nervosa. I have always had a very strange relationship with food; when I was little I never wanted to eat anything new or something that just looked like it would taste all slimy and gross on my tongue. I guess I was, and am, what you call extremely picky. That later evolved into something deeper. I started not to eat, because food is repulsing to me. At the end of this summer it really started getting crazy. I would go walking/ running a bit for hours to burn of calories, those few that I had eaten for breakfast. After a spare-some dinner I would be out in the streets again wanting to melt the fat of my body. Didn't go to the beach this year, I don't want people to stare their eyes out gazing at this lump of bulging fat! Yes, I care about other people :-) My complete obsession with food and work-out topped this August just after starting a new school, and it's been going up and down. There's been those fantastic days where I ate as little as possible (bad calorie, bad!) and even burned them exercising. And... there's been the less good ones... But we all know what they are like.
It's getting late and I have to hand over the laptop to my parents (I am a typical teenager who can sit with it until the dawn!) but I am so thrilled about this fabulous community. I have to admit that I have been watching you since August, where I was desperate for knowing more about my obsession with my weight. Every day I would check in and just read all your great comments and I got more and more secure in here. So, today was today where I'm now officially "suffering" with an ED. I hope you girls, and boys, will bid me welcome!
I will be back with more stuff about me tomorrow - there is a person behind Ana no matter how much Ana overshadows us, let's not forget that!
Lots of love,
Maria
Well, okay, this is my first entry so let's start with the basic introduction.
My name is Maria, I am 16 years old and I have anorexia nervosa. I have always had a very strange relationship with food; when I was little I never wanted to eat anything new or something that just looked like it would taste all slimy and gross on my tongue. I guess I was, and am, what you call extremely picky. That later evolved into something deeper. I started not to eat, because food is repulsing to me. At the end of this summer it really started getting crazy. I would go walking/ running a bit for hours to burn of calories, those few that I had eaten for breakfast. After a spare-some dinner I would be out in the streets again wanting to melt the fat of my body. Didn't go to the beach this year, I don't want people to stare their eyes out gazing at this lump of bulging fat! Yes, I care about other people :-) My complete obsession with food and work-out topped this August just after starting a new school, and it's been going up and down. There's been those fantastic days where I ate as little as possible (bad calorie, bad!) and even burned them exercising. And... there's been the less good ones... But we all know what they are like.
It's getting late and I have to hand over the laptop to my parents (I am a typical teenager who can sit with it until the dawn!) but I am so thrilled about this fabulous community. I have to admit that I have been watching you since August, where I was desperate for knowing more about my obsession with my weight. Every day I would check in and just read all your great comments and I got more and more secure in here. So, today was today where I'm now officially "suffering" with an ED. I hope you girls, and boys, will bid me welcome!
I will be back with more stuff about me tomorrow - there is a person behind Ana no matter how much Ana overshadows us, let's not forget that!
Lots of love,
Maria