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hmmmm have you ever done anything that seemed like a good idea at the time... but it rapidly went downhill from there... your intuition that spurred you to do the first thing... seems to have been terribly wrong, and that same intuition makes you automatically assume the worst case scenario... damn it all. why do i even bother still? i don't know, but there's something there, something that i can't explain and i don't know what it is... and that's why i still bother i guess... that just went full circle. so in essence, i set out to do something good? and end up wasting a quarter tank of gas, putting 70 unnecessary miles on my car, wasting two hours of my time, learning something that i don't want to know? or maybe just jumping to horrible conclusions... and still wondering if everything is o.k., wondering if i should be worried, or pissed off. i feel like slamming myself into a tree. i wonder if you'd care.
(don't worry, i'm not suicidal, i'm just in one of those kinds of moods right now, it'll pass... but i do wonder if you'd care)
keep pushing me away, you'll succeed eventually.
(don't worry, i'm not suicidal, i'm just in one of those kinds of moods right now, it'll pass... but i do wonder if you'd care)
keep pushing me away, you'll succeed eventually.