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How i wish i could know what was going on. Well, i mean i know what is going on... to an extent. i know what people want me to know, but often, that just isn't enough. I feel helpless, well not really helpless, but kinda, and something inside me is saying just leave it all alone, just let it, you know, do whatever it's gonna do... but i'm not like that. I can't ever just leave it alone. I always have to try to fix everything, save the world and all that whatnot. If i could be everything that everyone wanted, i would, but i know that's not possible. I could do my best though... but only if i knew what they wanted.
The only sure things in life are death and taxes... and that things will at one point or another go to pot during your life... but it always gets better, human beings are resilient creatures. They find a way of surviving, and making the best of things. I'm not sayin life is at one of those tough spots for me right now, far from it in fact, but... it is a bit foggy right now, what i wouldn't give for someone to grab me by the hand and say "This way!" I guess it's not so much that i'm not listening to myself, I am, but... I don't know. I guess i just need to know a little more so i can make the right decision, or any decision. Is there even a decision to make? or has it been made for me already? I guess all i can do is take it as it's dished out, take what i'm given, and make the best of it.
Just know that I never wanted to hurt you, and i never would intentionally hurt you.
I guess the only sure thing is that on Monday morning i will be faced with a group of children that are looking to learn about the zoo and have a fun time doing it. I know that i will give them my best, and try to make camp a memorable experience for them. That's a sure thing at the moment, and that will have to be enough.
The only sure things in life are death and taxes... and that things will at one point or another go to pot during your life... but it always gets better, human beings are resilient creatures. They find a way of surviving, and making the best of things. I'm not sayin life is at one of those tough spots for me right now, far from it in fact, but... it is a bit foggy right now, what i wouldn't give for someone to grab me by the hand and say "This way!" I guess it's not so much that i'm not listening to myself, I am, but... I don't know. I guess i just need to know a little more so i can make the right decision, or any decision. Is there even a decision to make? or has it been made for me already? I guess all i can do is take it as it's dished out, take what i'm given, and make the best of it.
Just know that I never wanted to hurt you, and i never would intentionally hurt you.
I guess the only sure thing is that on Monday morning i will be faced with a group of children that are looking to learn about the zoo and have a fun time doing it. I know that i will give them my best, and try to make camp a memorable experience for them. That's a sure thing at the moment, and that will have to be enough.