Ode to Lisa.
Lisa Darling,
I don't know why I ever told you the same thing that everyone else tells you, because I hate it when they tell me that. Yes, sometimes it is necessary to look out for yourself first, but I believe it is more necessary to look out for other people because not enough people do. I also know that no matter how many people tell you that, it makes no difference. I know it's not that easy.
I'm right there with you on the expectations issue, you know that because you and I have talked about it a million times. Just because we think of certain things, or because we always wait for each other, or because we are considerate of other people, does not mean that others act that way. But should they? I don't see what's so hard about it and it often angers me, but can we expect the same from others as we expect from ourselves? I don't think there is any certain answer to it, but please don't expect any less of yourself. Don't stop being who you are and acting the way you do because other people discourage you. When you think no one else appreciates or notices your thoughtfulness, know that I see it and I look up to it. It is often the only thing that keeps me from giving up. And remember people like Adam and Lil Barry, who always seem to be telling me what a wonderful person you are. And remember too that just because it isn't voiced does not mean that it isn't seen.
Today when everyone was complaining about lunch, I thought about how I didn't really notice that it wasn't especially tasty until someone said something. I've always noticed how I'm hardly discontent, and Megan hates that about me, but I think it's just my nature. Then when everyone started saying how crappy the lunch was, I thought about how (like I always say) it could be so much worse. And I wish more people could take a minute to realize that before they start complaining. And it really did sadden me to hear about them wanting to steal the pizza, but I suppose that the fact that they didn't speaks more of their character. And the whole movie night thing, I'm right there with you dawg. I never really thought it was about the movie...
I just want to thank you for being you. I love all of the people in my life with all of my heart, but I can relate to you more than anyone I've ever met and it feels so good to know that someone REALLY understands. You give me so much courage and motivation to keep on going, and to conserve the parts of me that are being tested right now. When I just want to give up and stop trying so hard, I look at you and remember that I'm not alone.
Don't ever change.
I love you!
I don't know why I ever told you the same thing that everyone else tells you, because I hate it when they tell me that. Yes, sometimes it is necessary to look out for yourself first, but I believe it is more necessary to look out for other people because not enough people do. I also know that no matter how many people tell you that, it makes no difference. I know it's not that easy.
I'm right there with you on the expectations issue, you know that because you and I have talked about it a million times. Just because we think of certain things, or because we always wait for each other, or because we are considerate of other people, does not mean that others act that way. But should they? I don't see what's so hard about it and it often angers me, but can we expect the same from others as we expect from ourselves? I don't think there is any certain answer to it, but please don't expect any less of yourself. Don't stop being who you are and acting the way you do because other people discourage you. When you think no one else appreciates or notices your thoughtfulness, know that I see it and I look up to it. It is often the only thing that keeps me from giving up. And remember people like Adam and Lil Barry, who always seem to be telling me what a wonderful person you are. And remember too that just because it isn't voiced does not mean that it isn't seen.
Today when everyone was complaining about lunch, I thought about how I didn't really notice that it wasn't especially tasty until someone said something. I've always noticed how I'm hardly discontent, and Megan hates that about me, but I think it's just my nature. Then when everyone started saying how crappy the lunch was, I thought about how (like I always say) it could be so much worse. And I wish more people could take a minute to realize that before they start complaining. And it really did sadden me to hear about them wanting to steal the pizza, but I suppose that the fact that they didn't speaks more of their character. And the whole movie night thing, I'm right there with you dawg. I never really thought it was about the movie...
I just want to thank you for being you. I love all of the people in my life with all of my heart, but I can relate to you more than anyone I've ever met and it feels so good to know that someone REALLY understands. You give me so much courage and motivation to keep on going, and to conserve the parts of me that are being tested right now. When I just want to give up and stop trying so hard, I look at you and remember that I'm not alone.
Don't ever change.
I love you!