Long time.
So that song about milkshakes just came on. I don't understand, who breeds these people? And furthermore, who gives them record deals?
Christmas was wonderful this year. My family members were the quite the resemblances of Scrooge and the Grinch, and our Christmas tree was poorly decorated and only stood for three days, but it could have been so much worse. I REALLY wanted a digital camera (which I was supposed to get as a graduation gift but I think my parents forgot that they ever said that), but I didn't want to ask for it because they already give me so much that I need. BUT! My dad ended up getting me one anyway and I love it! Now I can put pictures up here!
Oh oh, I almost forgot! I have the greatest holiday story. My mom, a social worker, went to deliver gifts to all of her families last week. One of the little girls, who apparently has heard my mom talk about my little sister before, bought a gift for my little sister. It's the cutest little bear and on the card it said, "Thank you for sharing your mom." ::tear::
What else, what else...
I can't wait to go back to school and start the new semester. I definitely did not do my best this past semester, and my new schedule is so much better, so I'm really going to buckle down.
I hate that my family and friends from home don't know who any of my friends from school are now. It's so weird to sit and talk with Megan about everyone and everything that's going on in Albion, while my brother and sister have no idea who these people are; we've always had a lot of the same friends. But it's nice that we made so many friends at school. Our room seriously always has people in it, and next year, rooming with Lisa and Rachel will be... well actually, I suppose it won't be much different than rooming next to them like we do now... but I'm still excited.
I'm becoming better friends with more of the guys at TKE, which makes me happy. Before, I only knew a few of the guys, but now when I come over there is always someone to talk to.
Chase and I are doing very well, as friends, after a rough couple of weeks of him being... not so nice. Come to think of it, several people in my life are being not so nice right now. It's weird because it's very easy for myself to say one thing to myself and mean it when I am not around the person, but put me in the same room with them and it's very difficult for me to give them the cold shoulder. Or when they say something very bitchy or hurtful, I have no desire to talk to them, but then they say something sweet or something that reminds me of how things used to be, and I want to cave. It's quite the dilemma I find myself in here. I don't want to have a reason to be angry with anyone, or to be on bad terms with anyone, but don't you just have to draw the line sometimes? I want to forget, but after so many times and the same shit is still being pulled, I just don't want to deal with it anymore. Because I know that if I just let it go, that's what will happen. Things may be good for a while, but eventually, it will all happen again. Sometimes I just want to be a bitch and say exactly what is on my mind at the moment no matter what. But I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS talk myself out of it. I justify the other person's actions, or convince myself that just because they did it to me does not make it alright to do it to them. But does it? And is it what one thinks that makes them who they are? Or what one says? Or what one chooses to say despite what they are thinking? Does that speak of one's true personality, or does that make them fake? Because if I always said exactly what I was thinking, I'm afraid I would come off as quite a different person my friends. Not such a nice person. But I use discretion when it comes to my words, out of consideration for other people. So what does it all mean? Maybe I am going nuts...
Umm... hmmm... guess that's all that's been going on lately. Hope everyone had a swell Christmas, and have a great New Year's Eve!
Christmas was wonderful this year. My family members were the quite the resemblances of Scrooge and the Grinch, and our Christmas tree was poorly decorated and only stood for three days, but it could have been so much worse. I REALLY wanted a digital camera (which I was supposed to get as a graduation gift but I think my parents forgot that they ever said that), but I didn't want to ask for it because they already give me so much that I need. BUT! My dad ended up getting me one anyway and I love it! Now I can put pictures up here!
Oh oh, I almost forgot! I have the greatest holiday story. My mom, a social worker, went to deliver gifts to all of her families last week. One of the little girls, who apparently has heard my mom talk about my little sister before, bought a gift for my little sister. It's the cutest little bear and on the card it said, "Thank you for sharing your mom." ::tear::
What else, what else...
I can't wait to go back to school and start the new semester. I definitely did not do my best this past semester, and my new schedule is so much better, so I'm really going to buckle down.
I hate that my family and friends from home don't know who any of my friends from school are now. It's so weird to sit and talk with Megan about everyone and everything that's going on in Albion, while my brother and sister have no idea who these people are; we've always had a lot of the same friends. But it's nice that we made so many friends at school. Our room seriously always has people in it, and next year, rooming with Lisa and Rachel will be... well actually, I suppose it won't be much different than rooming next to them like we do now... but I'm still excited.
I'm becoming better friends with more of the guys at TKE, which makes me happy. Before, I only knew a few of the guys, but now when I come over there is always someone to talk to.
Chase and I are doing very well, as friends, after a rough couple of weeks of him being... not so nice. Come to think of it, several people in my life are being not so nice right now. It's weird because it's very easy for myself to say one thing to myself and mean it when I am not around the person, but put me in the same room with them and it's very difficult for me to give them the cold shoulder. Or when they say something very bitchy or hurtful, I have no desire to talk to them, but then they say something sweet or something that reminds me of how things used to be, and I want to cave. It's quite the dilemma I find myself in here. I don't want to have a reason to be angry with anyone, or to be on bad terms with anyone, but don't you just have to draw the line sometimes? I want to forget, but after so many times and the same shit is still being pulled, I just don't want to deal with it anymore. Because I know that if I just let it go, that's what will happen. Things may be good for a while, but eventually, it will all happen again. Sometimes I just want to be a bitch and say exactly what is on my mind at the moment no matter what. But I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS talk myself out of it. I justify the other person's actions, or convince myself that just because they did it to me does not make it alright to do it to them. But does it? And is it what one thinks that makes them who they are? Or what one says? Or what one chooses to say despite what they are thinking? Does that speak of one's true personality, or does that make them fake? Because if I always said exactly what I was thinking, I'm afraid I would come off as quite a different person my friends. Not such a nice person. But I use discretion when it comes to my words, out of consideration for other people. So what does it all mean? Maybe I am going nuts...
Umm... hmmm... guess that's all that's been going on lately. Hope everyone had a swell Christmas, and have a great New Year's Eve!