young forever!

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i think it is amazing on how many people have changed over the years that i have known them. i mean yeah some i have just met but they have changed in like 2 weeks because they have a boyfriend. amazing i tell ya. and than you have ones that i have known forever and they still act as stuck up as they did in elementary school. sometimes i wounder how i put up with it. but i guess that is what friendships are all about. about dealing with the good and the bad. sometimes i wounder how they put up with me? i can be a bitch sometimes. i know i know you dont have to tell me! but seriously i really try my hardest to be nice to people, but sometimes it just aint no use. some people just dont like you! that really bothers me. and than you have like the sweetest people that no one likes but you yourself. it is just amazing. it is amazing to see everyone grow up so fast and everyone in 2 years some are 1 and some are none(as in seniors)go off to collage and leave all there friends. i just wanna stay a kid forever. like life was so simple whenwe were kids. we were learning things and didnt even know it. now im not talking about this age. there is way too too much drama to want to stay in this age. but im talking about before school started like we were lil toodlers. life was simple no worrys only when you did something wrong but that is it. we had parents giving us baths making us meals, them taking out the animal and cleaning. all we had to do was watch tv play ALOT go to sleep and go to the bathroom. it was easy.now i find myself woundering where am i going to go to collage. yeah i know it is 2 years away, but for me does anyone know how fast that is going to fly. i have a nephew that is going to be 2 in november my sistr s coming home this may. maybe? im moving sometime this year.. hopefully not out of the school district. junior year comes. school activities as in prom all the football games in going to try and be at no i will be a cuz ill have my liscense. all the basketball games ill be at cuz liscense in my future as in 7 months. cant wait :) but seriously i want to stay a lil kid i dont wanna grow up and go out into the real world. real world is harsh and if it is harsher than high school im going to die. i dont have it that bad but listen i have a fucked up sister. i never see my nephew when he lives 40 min away with a screwed up dad that justgotpicked up for a d.u.i my famiy is freakin gay( no offense to gay people cuz i know that is politcally incorrect) and they never know when just to leave me alone and then they get mad at me cuz i bit there head off cuz i hate coming home everyday. it is always alex do this or aex do that. grrr it angres me...my grades slipped last quarter so now i have my family looking at everything i do. it gets fusterating. and than we have people like this one girl that likes to freakin tell everyone with a dick her problems and then they start to like her and than she screws them over.. and makes up stories and tells everyone everyones business.everyone knows who im talking about right? well lets hope so cuz im not going tosay HER name... but my point of this whole entry is to see what we are coming up against in real life. a bunch of DRAMA worse than hight school will ever be.. a bunch of heart ache worse that high ever was. a bunch of bills and responsiblities... way worse that high school ever was. a bunch of people telling you how to do something. yeah wehave the teachers telling us what we are supposed to do but that is just minor to real life. i see my family go through all the phone calls and everything and i just wanna stay young forever.

but anyways.. how was everyones huge vacation away from school. i hate freakin snow? i have been sitting in my house doing nuthin.. same as everyone else i suppose?