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fuck. when did i get so pessimistic? it's not a good attitude for me... ironically, this is pissing me off.
saw Cars with celina today (and loved it. see it, seriously.), and then worked the night shift at the MU.
i established that i might need to start working a second job in order to keep up with monthly payments on an apartment and a car and everything else... and of course, there's the whole buying-food thing. so i'm thinking waitressing. killer tips and a fairly friendly atmosphere (except for dealing with condescending and/or rude people. hopefully under those circumstances i don't develop that nasty attitude that i'm prone to from time to time...) it shouldn't be so bad, right? right. minus the fact that i'm a total klutz, and i have a tendency to forget things... yeah.
all issues aside, i really need to focus on my attitude. i've just been pissy, irate, and REALLY uptight. how can i relax when i know i'm just going to mess things up when i don't have a death grip on the situation? it seems a little extreme i know, but you've never been in my head. logical progression has a nasty little habit of running away from me every so often, so i'd kinda like that to stop. i'm thinking maybe i have a mild form of ADD? i don't know... all i know is that sometimes i just lack the focus that's necessary for some stuff. hah, like i have time for a psychologist anyway... doctor appointment, i need to get a new oncologist, get referred to a dermatologist, and then somewhere in there i need to still be working and saving money for... everything.
and then mom tells me that they're selling the house. i guess their real estate agent told them that it wouldn't sell once the freeway's finished, so they're selling it now. that kinda makes me sad. partially because i've lived there for so long, and partially because i have no clue where my mom and stepdad are going to live... housing in mesa is so flippin expensive.
i need to get away from all this for a little while. i wish i had the money to take a trip and clear my head...
okay. tangent over. bed.
saw Cars with celina today (and loved it. see it, seriously.), and then worked the night shift at the MU.
i established that i might need to start working a second job in order to keep up with monthly payments on an apartment and a car and everything else... and of course, there's the whole buying-food thing. so i'm thinking waitressing. killer tips and a fairly friendly atmosphere (except for dealing with condescending and/or rude people. hopefully under those circumstances i don't develop that nasty attitude that i'm prone to from time to time...) it shouldn't be so bad, right? right. minus the fact that i'm a total klutz, and i have a tendency to forget things... yeah.
all issues aside, i really need to focus on my attitude. i've just been pissy, irate, and REALLY uptight. how can i relax when i know i'm just going to mess things up when i don't have a death grip on the situation? it seems a little extreme i know, but you've never been in my head. logical progression has a nasty little habit of running away from me every so often, so i'd kinda like that to stop. i'm thinking maybe i have a mild form of ADD? i don't know... all i know is that sometimes i just lack the focus that's necessary for some stuff. hah, like i have time for a psychologist anyway... doctor appointment, i need to get a new oncologist, get referred to a dermatologist, and then somewhere in there i need to still be working and saving money for... everything.
and then mom tells me that they're selling the house. i guess their real estate agent told them that it wouldn't sell once the freeway's finished, so they're selling it now. that kinda makes me sad. partially because i've lived there for so long, and partially because i have no clue where my mom and stepdad are going to live... housing in mesa is so flippin expensive.
i need to get away from all this for a little while. i wish i had the money to take a trip and clear my head...
okay. tangent over. bed.