the good.
i remember how i felt about him when it all began. i wasn't jealous, i was amiable. i wished the best for them, i remember telling her i wanted her to stay with him. and i promised him that if he ever asked me to back off, i would.
how Selfless! how Altruistic! what a joke. what, did i think that made me a good person?
in a year, things will not be much different. my crystal ball says, "don't get your hopes up, silly girl." but wait--hopes up? is that what i want? ugh.
but anyway, in six months he will not have changed, and it will not have gotten easier for her to leave, and she will forget that she ever told him six months. it's not as though the six month anniversary will come up and they will re-convene.
i am selfish and unfair and jealous and bitter. i am ugly.
how Selfless! how Altruistic! what a joke. what, did i think that made me a good person?
in a year, things will not be much different. my crystal ball says, "don't get your hopes up, silly girl." but wait--hopes up? is that what i want? ugh.
but anyway, in six months he will not have changed, and it will not have gotten easier for her to leave, and she will forget that she ever told him six months. it's not as though the six month anniversary will come up and they will re-convene.
i am selfish and unfair and jealous and bitter. i am ugly.