TWO JAREDS!
i don't even know if anyone even reads this anymore, my friends hardly update anymore :( that is why i have joined all these different communities, they are pretty cool and i like talking to people i have things in common with. :)
what is new with marcie lee:
my first true jared (also known as j.) came home last wednesday! HOORAY! it is so great to have him home again and i love how we can pick up right were we left off. the first nite he was back he called me and i headed to see him (he has to live & stay in ct due to his stuation but he lives about 2 minutes from me!) so i got there and most of the family was there. i helped him unpack and then we just sat and talked and talked and talked, until 3am! CRAZY! but that is what we are like, we talk about everything; funny or sad memories from the past, how important we are to each other, relationships, everything and anything. i love that boy so much! we made that silly pact of how if we are not married or close to it before we are 40 (actually 38) we will get married, so i can have my kids and my mini van i have always dreamed about and he can have a mistress LoL. i said 38 so i can get hopefully a few kids in there before i get too old, but he said he wouldn't mind adopting one of those kids angelina has, he seems cool, i would like a kid like that he said. he says if we ever got married his mom would probably be able to die a happy woman, she probably already has our rings picked out.
so we have hung out a few times since he got home. and he has fallen right back into my big brother protector title that he fits so well.
friday nite, my other jared (iannelli) and got into our first fight, and boy was it a fight of fights. YUCK! if i had written this weekend or maybe even yesterday i probably would have gone into detail, but things are better now. the simple version is, i hate that he can't verbally express how he feels. he shows, oh more then anything, he is such a big sweetheart and treats me so well and when we are together i smile and i am so happy. but that was another thing, i never really get to see him because he works so much. but anyway, things got heated friday nite, he left, i left and went to j.s to cool off. i cried and cried friday nite, so bad that when i woke up saturday morning my right eye was so swollen i could hardly see out of it. j. was so funny he was like oh no you look fine hun. yeah right! iannelli called me the next day after he got out of work at 1am sunday morning. up until that point i thought for sure we were over. but he said he wanted to meet that nite to talk things out, that he just needed some space but didn't want things to be over. our conversation sunday nite went well, i don't know if there will be any major changes but we understand our different ideas/views of love & relationships. my view on love is so simple and his is so complicated. there is so much more to it like his history and all this other stuff but everything is okay now. i could tell sunday nite that he doesn't want this to end. he told me sometimes he wishes he had met me 5 years from now when he isn't so focused on his career and such. but we will figure things out. there is so much i want to do also before i get so involved with someone. besides, it has only been 8 months. i am not wanting marriage, just wanting to see him more then twice a week. haha.
somethings i have been thinking about getting motivated to actually do:
~ walk, we are getting a treadmil so that should help motivate me, i can't blam the weather anymore or anything.
~ go back to school. i am going to shoot for summer classes to start off. i have finally figured out my finances for the most part. so i think i can at least take one class maybe two. i will have to look into it a little bit more.
~ update my resume. i have been looking in the paper every sunday for graphic jobs, and there has been at least one every week for the past few weeks. that must be a sign or something. so time to get my act together!
well like i said i am ot even sure if anyone reads this anymore but, it is alwasy nice to just write.
i need more friends on this thing! hahaha! :-P
for those that do still read it love & miss you all!
what is new with marcie lee:
my first true jared (also known as j.) came home last wednesday! HOORAY! it is so great to have him home again and i love how we can pick up right were we left off. the first nite he was back he called me and i headed to see him (he has to live & stay in ct due to his stuation but he lives about 2 minutes from me!) so i got there and most of the family was there. i helped him unpack and then we just sat and talked and talked and talked, until 3am! CRAZY! but that is what we are like, we talk about everything; funny or sad memories from the past, how important we are to each other, relationships, everything and anything. i love that boy so much! we made that silly pact of how if we are not married or close to it before we are 40 (actually 38) we will get married, so i can have my kids and my mini van i have always dreamed about and he can have a mistress LoL. i said 38 so i can get hopefully a few kids in there before i get too old, but he said he wouldn't mind adopting one of those kids angelina has, he seems cool, i would like a kid like that he said. he says if we ever got married his mom would probably be able to die a happy woman, she probably already has our rings picked out.
so we have hung out a few times since he got home. and he has fallen right back into my big brother protector title that he fits so well.
friday nite, my other jared (iannelli) and got into our first fight, and boy was it a fight of fights. YUCK! if i had written this weekend or maybe even yesterday i probably would have gone into detail, but things are better now. the simple version is, i hate that he can't verbally express how he feels. he shows, oh more then anything, he is such a big sweetheart and treats me so well and when we are together i smile and i am so happy. but that was another thing, i never really get to see him because he works so much. but anyway, things got heated friday nite, he left, i left and went to j.s to cool off. i cried and cried friday nite, so bad that when i woke up saturday morning my right eye was so swollen i could hardly see out of it. j. was so funny he was like oh no you look fine hun. yeah right! iannelli called me the next day after he got out of work at 1am sunday morning. up until that point i thought for sure we were over. but he said he wanted to meet that nite to talk things out, that he just needed some space but didn't want things to be over. our conversation sunday nite went well, i don't know if there will be any major changes but we understand our different ideas/views of love & relationships. my view on love is so simple and his is so complicated. there is so much more to it like his history and all this other stuff but everything is okay now. i could tell sunday nite that he doesn't want this to end. he told me sometimes he wishes he had met me 5 years from now when he isn't so focused on his career and such. but we will figure things out. there is so much i want to do also before i get so involved with someone. besides, it has only been 8 months. i am not wanting marriage, just wanting to see him more then twice a week. haha.
somethings i have been thinking about getting motivated to actually do:
~ walk, we are getting a treadmil so that should help motivate me, i can't blam the weather anymore or anything.
~ go back to school. i am going to shoot for summer classes to start off. i have finally figured out my finances for the most part. so i think i can at least take one class maybe two. i will have to look into it a little bit more.
~ update my resume. i have been looking in the paper every sunday for graphic jobs, and there has been at least one every week for the past few weeks. that must be a sign or something. so time to get my act together!
well like i said i am ot even sure if anyone reads this anymore but, it is alwasy nice to just write.
i need more friends on this thing! hahaha! :-P
for those that do still read it love & miss you all!