prepare yourself for a major pms-emotional-spill-of-happiness
the bottom right corner of the screen says 12:45 am. it's during lonely times like these that i realize how much i love and need my friends. honestly, i don't know anyone better than you guys...which is why i'm friends with you in the first place, but you know what i mean. i wish i had a book of all the good times we've had together, so i'll always be able to refer back to them when i'm old and saggy and wrinkly and can't remember my spunky years. that was so incredibly hokey and dumb, but it's true. some days i'll be sitting by myself, when all my friends have other plans, and i wonder what it'd be like if every day was like that. it makes me feel really bad for people who actually have nobody..not even family. i hate being alone for one day. i can't imagine being by myself forever. that was depressing, but i just need to thank my girls(and stu), for making my life more interesting. especially those of you who've been with me since i came out of lloyd. ew. but that's not to say that those of you who i've only recently become friends with aren't important. i love you a lot. high school has been so stable for me, because i finally found a group that gets along with each other, is a good influence, makes me laugh, understands and puts up with my quirkyness, is there for me all the time, and basically makes me a better person. i can't believe how mushy and unbelievably sappy this is, but i don't care at all. the majority of middle school sucked, because my friends weren't the most reliable bunch, and they made me feel like crap at times. i'm happy that i can depend on all of you whenever i need to. it's probably a lot to ask for, but i really hope we don't drift apart after graduation, because i need you guys in my life. i also need sleep, so i'll end this lifetime special with a simple "thank you".