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[smileycrayons]

I thought about it.
I thought about
if I had the chance
to go back
what would I do differently?
Would I have
chose not to meet you?
Would I have given up
the lessons I learned?
And I couldn't say
with certainty that I would.
There were things
I had to experience.
I found out that
if it's for someone I love,
I can do anything.
Even things that make me terrified,
even things that feel impossible.
So if I were to love myself
as much as I tried to love you,
couldn't I do all the things
I've been so afraid of?
I surround myself in chaos
because I don't want to lose anything.
I don't want to be hurt,
I don't want to hurt anyone else.
But things are already changing.
I'm already taking little steps.
And I still have the future
right there ahead of me,
waiting.