(no subject)
It's still hard for me
to understand myself
Who I am and what I feel
and why I am this way.
I'm trying to be myself
in this world
full of opposing things.
And I'm learning more
about myself
each day.
Things that suprise me
Things that I want to change
And I never quite feel grounded.
I think so much
but here there isn't even time
to do that.
I just have to keep going, living, moving.
And while it's overwhelming at times,
there's a stillness here
that I love.
I want to be better
I want to live better.
And I wonder,
like always
What do I really want?
How do I live as myself
in this world?
I'm changing every second.
Therefore I feel the need to ask myself
"Who am I right now?"
at every moment.
I'm finding myself here,
or trying to.
I'm trying to figure out
who I want to be.
I really do love
Japanese,
and I love music,
I don't think those things will change.
But I thought I'd feel so right here,
like all my problems would go away,
when in reality, they all came forward,
forcing me to face them.
But I live in the moment here,
Taking in just this moment
Not thinking too much about the future or past.
Knowing my time here is limitied,
there's no other way to live.
It seems time goes by so slow here
It's only been two months.
And yet, at the same time,
things are passing me by
faster than I can process them.
I fell into love so fast
And I'm giving my all to what we have right now
Though I know
it could all slip away in an instant.
But I'm not afraid because I've learned
how to let go.
I'm just loving him
and the other precious people in my life
and these moments
right now.
This is my life
and I want to make my mistakes for myself
and learn from them myself.
I feel conflicted at times
my heart is here and across the world,
I miss the warmth of home,
the people in my town,
and the little things you get used to.
But surely these days
will remain with me forever
and mold who I am
and who I am to become.
to understand myself
Who I am and what I feel
and why I am this way.
I'm trying to be myself
in this world
full of opposing things.
And I'm learning more
about myself
each day.
Things that suprise me
Things that I want to change
And I never quite feel grounded.
I think so much
but here there isn't even time
to do that.
I just have to keep going, living, moving.
And while it's overwhelming at times,
there's a stillness here
that I love.
I want to be better
I want to live better.
And I wonder,
like always
What do I really want?
How do I live as myself
in this world?
I'm changing every second.
Therefore I feel the need to ask myself
"Who am I right now?"
at every moment.
I'm finding myself here,
or trying to.
I'm trying to figure out
who I want to be.
I really do love
Japanese,
and I love music,
I don't think those things will change.
But I thought I'd feel so right here,
like all my problems would go away,
when in reality, they all came forward,
forcing me to face them.
But I live in the moment here,
Taking in just this moment
Not thinking too much about the future or past.
Knowing my time here is limitied,
there's no other way to live.
It seems time goes by so slow here
It's only been two months.
And yet, at the same time,
things are passing me by
faster than I can process them.
I fell into love so fast
And I'm giving my all to what we have right now
Though I know
it could all slip away in an instant.
But I'm not afraid because I've learned
how to let go.
I'm just loving him
and the other precious people in my life
and these moments
right now.
This is my life
and I want to make my mistakes for myself
and learn from them myself.
I feel conflicted at times
my heart is here and across the world,
I miss the warmth of home,
the people in my town,
and the little things you get used to.
But surely these days
will remain with me forever
and mold who I am
and who I am to become.