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blah im sick of these past entries being something bad and something good. least the goods in.
Well these past 2 days have been body productive. Got a bit depressed when my neck and breathing went back to shit so i decided to take matters into my own hands. He fixed it mon, but since my neck and back muscles got shortened somehow, whats to stop it from getting twisted again? dont wanna be a chiro whore forever! haha been doing all these neck and back exercises like crazy. its ridiculous! I sooo WANT to wake up sore so I know it's working. Been feeling strong, but I'm being very careful with my neck so it doesnt twist b4 i get neck&back strong. Mmmm I love being not helpless. But, if this doesnt work...err cant even think like that. It'll take months, but I can do it. yup.
It's like an explosion of obstacles came all at once. Def a test, but everything always turns out good in the end..altho this is taking FOREVER. I do admit tho, all this at once has taken a toll on my moods. I'm not so much in the mood to dance really anymore b/c I'm afraid it will hurt me. and well just blah. just in an ugly rut that I got to dig myself out, but sometimes I just can't find the energy to dig when more dirt just keeps pouring in. ehhh. I find that I just like to lay in bed a lot nowadays. it's just too much, but I CANNOT give up. ughhh another shit entry. I hate when all people do is complain or whine..suck it up di. you can do it.
found this old lj icon..seems fitting..defeating, but eh
Well these past 2 days have been body productive. Got a bit depressed when my neck and breathing went back to shit so i decided to take matters into my own hands. He fixed it mon, but since my neck and back muscles got shortened somehow, whats to stop it from getting twisted again? dont wanna be a chiro whore forever! haha been doing all these neck and back exercises like crazy. its ridiculous! I sooo WANT to wake up sore so I know it's working. Been feeling strong, but I'm being very careful with my neck so it doesnt twist b4 i get neck&back strong. Mmmm I love being not helpless. But, if this doesnt work...err cant even think like that. It'll take months, but I can do it. yup.
It's like an explosion of obstacles came all at once. Def a test, but everything always turns out good in the end..altho this is taking FOREVER. I do admit tho, all this at once has taken a toll on my moods. I'm not so much in the mood to dance really anymore b/c I'm afraid it will hurt me. and well just blah. just in an ugly rut that I got to dig myself out, but sometimes I just can't find the energy to dig when more dirt just keeps pouring in. ehhh. I find that I just like to lay in bed a lot nowadays. it's just too much, but I CANNOT give up. ughhh another shit entry. I hate when all people do is complain or whine..suck it up di. you can do it.
found this old lj icon..seems fitting..defeating, but eh