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I have never felt more alone in my life.
So today was fun I guess. Went to choir concert, more reason why my whole life sucks. We were so bad, especially on Hail Holy Queen. So I come home and Luba, Neka, and Mike come over and we just kind of hang out for a little bit. Luba and I were "tanning" although I didn't get any darker. Then we decided we were going to see Van Helsing, Jack was supposed to come but he didn't pick up his phone. So my dad drove us up and they jipped us by making us each pay 9 bucks for a movie. WTF????? SO it came out to be 35 bucks. We got Chick-Fil-A fries and energy drinks to keep us up.
Movie - Hilarious. I have never laughed so much in a serious movie. The ending was by far the funniest part.
So after wards we stalked Mike and Luba for a little bit as they went off into there little world. It was quite amusing. Then I saw Jack, Lindsay, and Catie at the mall.... but by that time we had to leave to walk back to Neka's house so Luba could get home. :sigh: Oh well it doesn't really matter. I would rather be alone right now....
Tomorrow is mothers day. I hope that Julie doesn't expect me to stay here and celebrate it. I can't be in this house and think of all the memories of my mother. Because by the end of the day I will just end up crying again. Just when I think I am out of her grasp I find myself back in it.
So Happy mother's day mom. I hope you read this and when you do, I hope you know you fucked up my life. I trusted you, and just to know... you got better and then decided to stop taking your medicine... ruined all faith to see you again. There is not a day I don't think about you, and what could of been... but never will.
No one knows what it's like
To be mistreated
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes (blue eyes...blue eyes)
And no one know how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies (lies...lies)
Julia
So today was fun I guess. Went to choir concert, more reason why my whole life sucks. We were so bad, especially on Hail Holy Queen. So I come home and Luba, Neka, and Mike come over and we just kind of hang out for a little bit. Luba and I were "tanning" although I didn't get any darker. Then we decided we were going to see Van Helsing, Jack was supposed to come but he didn't pick up his phone. So my dad drove us up and they jipped us by making us each pay 9 bucks for a movie. WTF????? SO it came out to be 35 bucks. We got Chick-Fil-A fries and energy drinks to keep us up.
Movie - Hilarious. I have never laughed so much in a serious movie. The ending was by far the funniest part.
So after wards we stalked Mike and Luba for a little bit as they went off into there little world. It was quite amusing. Then I saw Jack, Lindsay, and Catie at the mall.... but by that time we had to leave to walk back to Neka's house so Luba could get home. :sigh: Oh well it doesn't really matter. I would rather be alone right now....
Tomorrow is mothers day. I hope that Julie doesn't expect me to stay here and celebrate it. I can't be in this house and think of all the memories of my mother. Because by the end of the day I will just end up crying again. Just when I think I am out of her grasp I find myself back in it.
So Happy mother's day mom. I hope you read this and when you do, I hope you know you fucked up my life. I trusted you, and just to know... you got better and then decided to stop taking your medicine... ruined all faith to see you again. There is not a day I don't think about you, and what could of been... but never will.
No one knows what it's like
To be mistreated
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes (blue eyes...blue eyes)
And no one know how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies (lies...lies)
Julia