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[smilesun]

it's kinda funny...reading last summer's posts and seeing how much is the same and how so much has changed. this summer i'm not just a friend with benefits. i'm not feeling awkward around justin's friends cause well they are mine now...i know that and learned that in march actually...cause they were all there when i needed them...not just him but for the first time me too and that was such a good thing for me.
still partying...not as hardcore as last year....still have moments of pure drunkeness...especially when you put me and sara together and give us a kick ass jam band to dance too....or watch her lust after josh.. getting to hang with her and layne and rachel makes me a happy kid cause i have my girls who save my ass when i am stranded...i see how i have changed and i see what makes me happy and not happy...i see myself getting older and starting to have responsibilities.

most of all i am happy that i am having fun...being around people i love...getting to see random camp people during the week or just getting to be around my second family...i'm telling you my aunt-t chelle is a cool chick lol...i'm just generally happy...a few days i might have my moments but overall i am happy....and for the first time in a while it isnt masked by my harming myself...it kinda cool

i dunno...i'm just weird :) i hope everyone else is having a good summer...almost over but still going strong...