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"Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand " -- Simple Plan - Perfect
After listening for an hour + about how much she hates me. How much of a failure I am in her eyes. How fat and ugly she truly believes I am. I'm at the library..crazy place to end up,huh?
Another outbreak was last night. I didn't go to some party that was going on and my friend's drunkenness basically spilled everything. That she's been talking to my ex and that he told her I was a b*tch that thinks I can have whatever I want and that I think the world revolves around me. Wasn't what I was expecting to hear.. and I'm not going to lie that hurt and if it's true that he thinks that of me...well wait, why is my friend talking to him about me in the first place? He was right on the fact we just needed time. At least in this time I get to find out what he truly thought of me. She was drunk and mad that I didn't feel like going to a party. I'm not going to bring things up because I'm hoping in her little rage she just came up with something that she thought would hurt me the most. ....
I am going to get what I want, no questions, and right now it's my body for swimsuit. The world doesn't revolve around me, and I never thought that it did. I am going to kick butt and get myself back.
I'm leaving WV, and I'll be leaving with a title/crown.