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OK SO HERES MY WARNING NO ONE HAS TO READ THIS AND YOU CAN STOP AT WHATEVER POINT AND THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANY ONE PERSON!!!!! THANK YOU!!! :)
Ok so over the past month a lot has happened, things I never imagined would and it has made life very interesting and also quite difficult. I have had to make a lot of decisions that almost no one agrees with and a lot of people dont support. Thats a sure sign you are growing up when sometimes the decisions you make that are the best for you, you must make with out the approval and support of others.
So for thoes of you who havent asked but have seen my info, Nick and I are trying it again. You are more then welcome to disagree but there are only two people I know of that may be reading this that know the whole story cover to cover and if you are not one of them then you dont know what I've said and what its taken to get to this point. Also if you've never been in the position where you have to make the decision to go back out with someone you honestly still love please becareful not to judge for you have never been there and it sure as hell isnt easy. It was not an easy decision and one that came with a lot of emotions and thinking and anyalizing. We are TRYING it again and I'm litterally taking it day by day and we'll see how it goes but I would rather regret something I did than something I never did and for the rest of my life wonder what would have happened. It hasn't been easy, for the first time I have stood up for myself and stood my ground against him and against friends. Its ok if you dont support me. I've lost the abilty to get advice from a someone who has given me good advice I have also been told when he fucks up I'm gonna be the first to tell you I told you so. I realize there are a lot of I told you so's that could be comming my way and I told this person I'll be the first to tell you you were right. But its something I need to do and I'm not doing it for anyone but me.
I find it funny how people don't talk to you unless you have something about a boy in you info. I seriously get a laugh out of it. :)
On another note in case anyone cares about the non boy part of my life... because of my work on orientation I was asked to work on the family weekend committee which was a lot of fun and a great compliment. I met some really cool people and have a lot of new friends. I love where I live and who I live with. I am now the pubicity manager for the campus activities board. I love my classes. Marketings really hard but I love it, he asked me a favor today which I took as a huge compliment.
So yea its been quite the month...
Anyone whos read all this good for you! You are probably one of the two people who know everything anyways haha -Thanksy ou two!! <3. If you arn't thanks for reading and NO ONE should take this personally and if you do I'm sorry but I stated it in caps in the beginning for a reason.
hope everything is going well for everyone :)
<3 Johnna :)
Ok so over the past month a lot has happened, things I never imagined would and it has made life very interesting and also quite difficult. I have had to make a lot of decisions that almost no one agrees with and a lot of people dont support. Thats a sure sign you are growing up when sometimes the decisions you make that are the best for you, you must make with out the approval and support of others.
So for thoes of you who havent asked but have seen my info, Nick and I are trying it again. You are more then welcome to disagree but there are only two people I know of that may be reading this that know the whole story cover to cover and if you are not one of them then you dont know what I've said and what its taken to get to this point. Also if you've never been in the position where you have to make the decision to go back out with someone you honestly still love please becareful not to judge for you have never been there and it sure as hell isnt easy. It was not an easy decision and one that came with a lot of emotions and thinking and anyalizing. We are TRYING it again and I'm litterally taking it day by day and we'll see how it goes but I would rather regret something I did than something I never did and for the rest of my life wonder what would have happened. It hasn't been easy, for the first time I have stood up for myself and stood my ground against him and against friends. Its ok if you dont support me. I've lost the abilty to get advice from a someone who has given me good advice I have also been told when he fucks up I'm gonna be the first to tell you I told you so. I realize there are a lot of I told you so's that could be comming my way and I told this person I'll be the first to tell you you were right. But its something I need to do and I'm not doing it for anyone but me.
I find it funny how people don't talk to you unless you have something about a boy in you info. I seriously get a laugh out of it. :)
On another note in case anyone cares about the non boy part of my life... because of my work on orientation I was asked to work on the family weekend committee which was a lot of fun and a great compliment. I met some really cool people and have a lot of new friends. I love where I live and who I live with. I am now the pubicity manager for the campus activities board. I love my classes. Marketings really hard but I love it, he asked me a favor today which I took as a huge compliment.
So yea its been quite the month...
Anyone whos read all this good for you! You are probably one of the two people who know everything anyways haha -Thanksy ou two!! <3. If you arn't thanks for reading and NO ONE should take this personally and if you do I'm sorry but I stated it in caps in the beginning for a reason.
hope everything is going well for everyone :)
<3 Johnna :)