slowly but surely...

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so i knew things werent gonna just change overnight, but i can tell that things between me and my mom are going to get better. since ive been sick with strep throat and stuck at home, the other night i was here in my room listenin to music and bored outta my mind and she came in with some cookies and a baby book of when i was little to show me pics that i hadnt seen forever... of course we ended up arguing over somethin stupid and it ruined the moment... but at least the moment was there, right? last night, went to dinner at my dads... complete disaster. :( i just dont fit in when im at that house. they go out of their way to make me feel uncomfortable and my dad just lets them do it... so i ended up leaving before we were even done dinner and my dad calls me and yells at me about how i was acting like a baby and then calls my mom and tells her how immature i was acting... um, maybe he should talk to my step sisters about their behavior cause some of them are older than me, but act like they are 4. ugh...

but for the good news... going to jamaica in june... just me and amy... whoo hoo... fun in the sun! cant wait. and things are goin good with me and ron... i swear if i screw this up i'll die... but right now im actually in a pretty good mood, so lets hope it lasts...