spirit move~
I can be myself!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~
I don't have to impress people, because the only opinion that truly matters, is GOD'S!!
You see, I have a little problem sometimes. One of the areas in my life that is lacking in purity is my confidence. I can be very fun, witty, inteligent and confident when I'm with about three or less people. Any more than that and my palms start to sweat, my stomach hurts a little, and I get really nervous. Because I feel like I don't have anything interesting to say, and no one is interested in what I have to say anyway, and I can't approach people because I don't want to say anything that is offensive, or stupid, or boring, or anything like that. I don't like to be in big groups of people for very long, because it's stressful I can't talk to anyone!!
Well, I just had a nice, long chat with my daddy and my sister about this. And they both helped me to realize that I can't always please everyone. And the big problem really lies within myself. It doesn't matter what other people think, even if it hurts sometimes. I have to build up my confidence with myself, and not listen to the lies that swirl around in my head. Lies that tell me I'm not good enough, or I'm not interesting enough, or funny, or pretty, or whatever! Sometimes I'm so afraid of letting myself become prideful in any way, that I allow negative thoughts enter my mind, and then I put myself down and feel bad about myself.
You might not even notice it either, because it's something that burns on the inside, where no one can see it, and people only ask "What's wrong?" and I can quickly cover it up by saying, "Oh, nothing. I'm fine." I'm going to work on it now. I'm working on my confidence. I'm working on making it be about the other person and not all about me, because I need to be a selfLESS person. Because if I keep letting those lies tell me I'm not good enough, it's like saying, "God, you made a mistake when you made me."
And God never makes mistakes.
I'm just so glad that God forgives and forgets.
I don't have to impress people, because the only opinion that truly matters, is GOD'S!!
You see, I have a little problem sometimes. One of the areas in my life that is lacking in purity is my confidence. I can be very fun, witty, inteligent and confident when I'm with about three or less people. Any more than that and my palms start to sweat, my stomach hurts a little, and I get really nervous. Because I feel like I don't have anything interesting to say, and no one is interested in what I have to say anyway, and I can't approach people because I don't want to say anything that is offensive, or stupid, or boring, or anything like that. I don't like to be in big groups of people for very long, because it's stressful I can't talk to anyone!!
Well, I just had a nice, long chat with my daddy and my sister about this. And they both helped me to realize that I can't always please everyone. And the big problem really lies within myself. It doesn't matter what other people think, even if it hurts sometimes. I have to build up my confidence with myself, and not listen to the lies that swirl around in my head. Lies that tell me I'm not good enough, or I'm not interesting enough, or funny, or pretty, or whatever! Sometimes I'm so afraid of letting myself become prideful in any way, that I allow negative thoughts enter my mind, and then I put myself down and feel bad about myself.
You might not even notice it either, because it's something that burns on the inside, where no one can see it, and people only ask "What's wrong?" and I can quickly cover it up by saying, "Oh, nothing. I'm fine." I'm going to work on it now. I'm working on my confidence. I'm working on making it be about the other person and not all about me, because I need to be a selfLESS person. Because if I keep letting those lies tell me I'm not good enough, it's like saying, "God, you made a mistake when you made me."
And God never makes mistakes.
I'm just so glad that God forgives and forgets.