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I agree with Alex. I am the same way. I only update when I feel like crap. This is like, where I can go when I don't want to talk to anyone, but I'm dying to scream it all at the top of my lungs. Life has been so confusing this entire year. I have gone through so many up and downs I have no idea how I am not motion sick at this point. I've come to realize who my true friends are, and who just stick around because they are bored & want to butt in on my life. Boys are still as confusing as ever. They always will be. I've come to the realization, that life is easier when you live it the way God wants you to live it and not the way that YOU want to live it. Of course, I've ALWAYS known that, but I am so guilty of not following Him how I am supposed to. There are soooo many rumors going around about me, alot of it hurt. Some of it may have been true, but what gets me is the people who were saying it all. They accused me of doing some "bad things"..but who are they to say all of that? they are just as guilty as i am! they may not have done the same things..but as my favorite quote goes...
"Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect, and I don't live to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean." -Bob Marley
People are so stupid. They go through life worrying about what other people are doing. Why can't they just mind there own business? The friends I thought were ALWAYS going to be there for me, were the one's that hated me & just "put up with me". Who know they were really dreading spending time with me? How can someone be so two-faced. If you have a problem with me, tell me. I may not take it well, I may blow up in your face, but gah! Don't live a lie for MY sake! Don't feel sorry for me, if you don't want me in your life, then I don't want you in mine. Why waste my time on something as pitiful as you? I have my best friends and I know they love me, they prove it everyday in more ways than one. I have the best family a girl could ask for & I don't need "pity friends". So, from now on..if you don't want to deal with me, don't. Quit calling. I'll get the picture. Just quit being so two-faced. I have better things to do then to deal with you.