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It was raining earlier so i wentout and sat in it.I havent done that in ages oyu know. The last time i think was that night on the beach. Do you remember when i use to dance? I use to want to be a ballet dancer so bad. I got up earlier than anyone else so i could practice and then go to school. i spent so much time on it and u went to a few of my auditions. remeber that time it was raining and we were soaked and i was just dancing around and you were laughing and telling me to stop so we could go but i wouldnt. I never listened to you. what was the point? think about it. This was before you know. before everything thats happened. Im not the same person that i use to be. i don't go out in the rain or the pitch black just to dance anymore. I gave up on that completely. i gave up on everything and i don't like it. I use to love doing everything possible and now i don't. know its a hardship to get through the day sometime. i dont like that. I hate it. i wish everything could go back to the way it should be but i know it wont happen unless i make it. Thats the problem. Remember that girl we met? the really high one? the one who told you not to worry because nothing really mattered anymore? it wasnt important she said. who cared? i think ive become her and i dont like it. it sucks. im changing. as of when i get back form vacation im no longer who i am now im who i use to be. thanks for reminding me. i really needed the cold dose of reallity.
Love
laura
Love
laura