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ive had a bad day.
yesterday --
didnt get to shop, no guns, i did every job but mine, and got yelled at for "standing around" HA. put away all the carriages by myself. also helped erin finish her job, so she could leave at 3.
found out that my parents planned a trip to NY for my sisters sweet 16th. they leave on a day that ill be in the darkroom, right before finals and such. i would have to skip another class also. and i may have to pay for my own ticket and museums, but yet they can take my sisters friend to broadway shows, and pay for the hotel for her. GAY.
slept the day away
did not get a goodnights sleep, kept on having nightmares.
miss jeremy terribly.
Today --
shoped at work.
did 8-9 orders, new girl did 4. new girl mouthed off to kelly, and said that everyone that works mornings is old. she also punches out without even asking a manager if she can go. put away more carriages too. got yelled at for 2 things being in the wrong place. and i cant stand it when i do my job wrong, and to get yelled at like 2-3 people about it, made me feel really shitty, when i wasnt even the one who put them there, i just pointed to where i last saw the place was, and other people put them there. i try to have two mins with kim to talk to her, and i get yelled at for not doing anything, when all the teenagers come in at 3 to help put things away, and yet they can walk around the store and not do anything. When i try to voice my opinion to a manager, who i could actually try to hold a human conversation with, just kind of blows me off, along with a coworker going bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan. and it wasnt even that, the fact that i ALWAYS stay until my scheduled time, with a few times that i have left early, and others can punch out when ever they want and do what ever they want, when i actually work. i feel so underappericated there, and told him that, and he just kind of shrugged it off. i swear to god if i did not get out of there at 3:53 i would have balled my eyes out in the next 10 mins. also when i told the manager bryon that i couldnt work next thurs becuase i had a XRAY appoitment at the dentist, he goes "you cant work becasue of that? it doesnt take a whole day to get an Xray done." and i didnt tell him that it was at 8:30 in the morning, but i had told them in the note that they never got or "lost" that thursdays had to be very optional for me to work.
i owe people money
i keep on eating empty calories
i sleep the day away
i am not doing anything with my life i feel
im paying $20,000 to live at a place that i am most likely there 3 days 2 nights a week.
they dont even apperciate at work that im comming back to work for them, atleast 2 days a week.
i feel like im wasting money, that i cant seem to save it.
i need a car
sometimes i feel that im too real for people, reality thought wise.
sometimes i feel that my thoughts are not understood by others, and that jeremy is the only one that understands my ideas.
i miss him terribly.
taco was sleeping with me last night, as if he was my boyfriend. hes really cute.
sometimes, my life is a joke. my caring for you is a joke. my efforts for you is a joke. my words and thoughts are a joke. i dont mean anything.
yesterday --
didnt get to shop, no guns, i did every job but mine, and got yelled at for "standing around" HA. put away all the carriages by myself. also helped erin finish her job, so she could leave at 3.
found out that my parents planned a trip to NY for my sisters sweet 16th. they leave on a day that ill be in the darkroom, right before finals and such. i would have to skip another class also. and i may have to pay for my own ticket and museums, but yet they can take my sisters friend to broadway shows, and pay for the hotel for her. GAY.
slept the day away
did not get a goodnights sleep, kept on having nightmares.
miss jeremy terribly.
Today --
shoped at work.
did 8-9 orders, new girl did 4. new girl mouthed off to kelly, and said that everyone that works mornings is old. she also punches out without even asking a manager if she can go. put away more carriages too. got yelled at for 2 things being in the wrong place. and i cant stand it when i do my job wrong, and to get yelled at like 2-3 people about it, made me feel really shitty, when i wasnt even the one who put them there, i just pointed to where i last saw the place was, and other people put them there. i try to have two mins with kim to talk to her, and i get yelled at for not doing anything, when all the teenagers come in at 3 to help put things away, and yet they can walk around the store and not do anything. When i try to voice my opinion to a manager, who i could actually try to hold a human conversation with, just kind of blows me off, along with a coworker going bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan. and it wasnt even that, the fact that i ALWAYS stay until my scheduled time, with a few times that i have left early, and others can punch out when ever they want and do what ever they want, when i actually work. i feel so underappericated there, and told him that, and he just kind of shrugged it off. i swear to god if i did not get out of there at 3:53 i would have balled my eyes out in the next 10 mins. also when i told the manager bryon that i couldnt work next thurs becuase i had a XRAY appoitment at the dentist, he goes "you cant work becasue of that? it doesnt take a whole day to get an Xray done." and i didnt tell him that it was at 8:30 in the morning, but i had told them in the note that they never got or "lost" that thursdays had to be very optional for me to work.
i owe people money
i keep on eating empty calories
i sleep the day away
i am not doing anything with my life i feel
im paying $20,000 to live at a place that i am most likely there 3 days 2 nights a week.
they dont even apperciate at work that im comming back to work for them, atleast 2 days a week.
i feel like im wasting money, that i cant seem to save it.
i need a car
sometimes i feel that im too real for people, reality thought wise.
sometimes i feel that my thoughts are not understood by others, and that jeremy is the only one that understands my ideas.
i miss him terribly.
taco was sleeping with me last night, as if he was my boyfriend. hes really cute.
sometimes, my life is a joke. my caring for you is a joke. my efforts for you is a joke. my words and thoughts are a joke. i dont mean anything.