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everything is pretty much awful. i am so under satisfied with how my life is right now. after everything i've accomplished and how far i've pushed myself and all this stupid time and energy i feel like i'm still fighting and losing the same battles. 4 years at lasalle, 2 years at stop and shop, 18 years with my parents, multiple boyfriends, tons of friends, more days than i feel like counting, more mistakes than days and for each a lesson or two learned and i feel completely empty. i feel like a complete loss like after everything i haven't gained a thing. i haven't even started college yet and i'm already watching everything fall apart. what did any of it matter? what was the purpose of all the bullshit if i haven't made it any farther in life, if i haven't grown up and gained something, not a single god damned thing. fuck it.
also, if you even dare to comment with something cliche like "you gained me" i will drop your ass faster than a broken rollercoaster. its stupid and a lie and chances are if you are one of the retards that would say that, then you clearly don't know me at all and would be proving me completey correct.
ps-i wrote a poem today, i'm very proud of myself.
also, if you even dare to comment with something cliche like "you gained me" i will drop your ass faster than a broken rollercoaster. its stupid and a lie and chances are if you are one of the retards that would say that, then you clearly don't know me at all and would be proving me completey correct.
ps-i wrote a poem today, i'm very proud of myself.