A night to feel free
I went to health services again today. Yet again, they turned me away saying nothing was wrong with me. I went back home, fell asleep for an hour, woke up shaking and achy, and decided I had to go to the hospital because no one was doing anything for me here. I called Hannah, because I didn't know of any Urgent Care place around here that would be ok to go to, and she drove me to her house, and her mom gave me soup and warm bread and popsicles (which, in a way, is Urgent Care) then she took me to her Urgent Care place in Fairfax. I had a 100.4 fever, which isn't high, but it is enough to make you feel disgusting. The doctor took one look at my throat and put me on antibiotics and vicodin.
In conclusion: FUCK STUDENT HEALTH SERVICES. They don't know what the fuck they are doing, and now my tonsils are big swollen potatoes, I have a fever and I never get fevers, and I had to miss crew tonight because I couldn't take being sick anymore.
Since I now have medicine, I hope to be feeling better soon. I was talking to Hannah tonight about being free. Moments in life where you feel like nothing could harm you...a night where the universe really gives you complete and utter freedom. Moments like that are few for me, but when I have them...I never ever forget them. I need a night. To feel free, and whatever is wrong, whatever is hurting you...fades away, and nothing matters, except that moment, where you feel as though you are just part of the universe; you aren't alone, you are free....and anything can happen. When I'm around Hannah or Cat, I feel like there is potential to have that kind of night.
I need to express before I go to bed how wonderful people are to me. Despite my insecurities, this year I have learned how blessed I am to have the people that I do in my life. I want to be as good of a friend as you have been to me. I mean that with my whole heart.
In conclusion: FUCK STUDENT HEALTH SERVICES. They don't know what the fuck they are doing, and now my tonsils are big swollen potatoes, I have a fever and I never get fevers, and I had to miss crew tonight because I couldn't take being sick anymore.
Since I now have medicine, I hope to be feeling better soon. I was talking to Hannah tonight about being free. Moments in life where you feel like nothing could harm you...a night where the universe really gives you complete and utter freedom. Moments like that are few for me, but when I have them...I never ever forget them. I need a night. To feel free, and whatever is wrong, whatever is hurting you...fades away, and nothing matters, except that moment, where you feel as though you are just part of the universe; you aren't alone, you are free....and anything can happen. When I'm around Hannah or Cat, I feel like there is potential to have that kind of night.
I need to express before I go to bed how wonderful people are to me. Despite my insecurities, this year I have learned how blessed I am to have the people that I do in my life. I want to be as good of a friend as you have been to me. I mean that with my whole heart.