sorry it has been so long..
Hello my fellow humans (he he),
I am so sorry it has been so long since I have journaled. A month has flown by! Well.. here is the quickie version. I met some cool new people (most from Columbia) named Marcella, Paola, Santiago (Santi)and Tony (Californian who thinks he is from Africa).. long story.. anyways. LOL, I have had a blast hanging out with my crew plus a few. Crew being Ali, Anna, Lisa, the above mentioned and every now and then Diego. We have played cards, went shopping watched thriller movies (momento and Pirates of the Caribbean), drove to a lame party in one car like mexicans (inside joke) and just basically had a blast hanging out. Oh yeah, and there is nursing school too! I start clinicals in a few days at Grady with Anna which should be exciting and yet challenging. So far I have stuck to God's plan for me and given up dating or even searching for my "one" guy completely. I now see how God is soo faithful and provides for ALL MY NEEDS!I have not been as lonely as I thought I would because of the neat friends I have made and had a chance to get to know better...until...
Tonight, after Ali, Lisa and I were talking about our past boyfriends and first kisses.. I realized that soo much can really change in a year. A year ago to this day I had my first kiss... and now I don't even date and I am basically in love with a guy who hasn't talked to me in two months that I have never actually met! Do I need help or what?
Also in just this month, I got a job in the cafeteria and now must resign because of too much stress, a family friend of mine committed suicide, a guy tried to have phone sex with me and I cut him off in a cool way (let me know if you want the long version to any of this info), and I have begun to read Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis again. Also, I have not talked to Zack, a pastor I kept in touch with on the phone and computer that I found through e-harmony, in about two months, but still have hope that God's will is at work even in that seemingly hopeless situation. I have had God-sent visions and bible verses about this guy and he has had ones of me (which never happened to either of us before). Even when I consider that he is probably not interested in being anything more than my friend at this point in time, I cannot help but think about him and the possibility of more happening between us. At times I get frustrated and try to get him out of my mind. It always seems to be those times, like when I am driving when I will see a few motorcycles( he rides one), Kentcuky license plates (where he lives), receive a Henshaw newsletter (the church he works at),read a devotion or hear a song about Jeremiah equating the gospel to a "fire in his bones" (which is the first message Zack preached about for a trial sermon to become a pastor at Henshaw) or someone will mention in casual conversation traveing to Italy (where he told me wants to go on his honeymoon.. which just happens to be the same place I have really wanted to go for my honeymoon.. but I didn't tell him that of course).
Maybe I am just trying to make connections or something, but I get the message that the Lord just has us separated from each other for our own good for a little while in preparation and anticipation for something big. I can also see how maybe we were just good friends who encouraged one another at a crucial time in our lives, but deep inside my soul.. if I am really gut-wrenchingly honest I pray that he is the one for me and if not, God would make it crystal clear. I really would love to meet him, but his life is very full being a new associate pastor at a Christian Church and mine is also being a CNA and active nursing student. Translation: I like him, really miss his company and kinda wonder why he has not called since he moved to Kentucky (he was in Illinois). Anyways,I have not been as diligent with reading God's word like I had hoped I would be in school. I know I am a work in progress but also do not want to miss out on blessings simply because my eyes were closed to the word or God showing me. My sis is still struggling to make it at tech, I am hopefully moving in with Keely, a neat friend of mine, next semester, my mom is still looking for a full time counseling position, my dad is working hard at basically two jobs to make ends meet for all of us. I am reallyvery nervous about clinicals and all the I have to do for them.. paper work, research and actually giving patient care. I can see more and more how God is calling me to be a medical missionary AND a pastor's wife. That might seem a bit presumptuous, but God said it, so I believe it. How it will all come about is a part of the mystery and adventure we call life. Now I am talking to Nick.. a cool friend about God in his life. so I will be a good friend and write soon. In His Hands.. Peace.
I am so sorry it has been so long since I have journaled. A month has flown by! Well.. here is the quickie version. I met some cool new people (most from Columbia) named Marcella, Paola, Santiago (Santi)and Tony (Californian who thinks he is from Africa).. long story.. anyways. LOL, I have had a blast hanging out with my crew plus a few. Crew being Ali, Anna, Lisa, the above mentioned and every now and then Diego. We have played cards, went shopping watched thriller movies (momento and Pirates of the Caribbean), drove to a lame party in one car like mexicans (inside joke) and just basically had a blast hanging out. Oh yeah, and there is nursing school too! I start clinicals in a few days at Grady with Anna which should be exciting and yet challenging. So far I have stuck to God's plan for me and given up dating or even searching for my "one" guy completely. I now see how God is soo faithful and provides for ALL MY NEEDS!I have not been as lonely as I thought I would because of the neat friends I have made and had a chance to get to know better...until...
Tonight, after Ali, Lisa and I were talking about our past boyfriends and first kisses.. I realized that soo much can really change in a year. A year ago to this day I had my first kiss... and now I don't even date and I am basically in love with a guy who hasn't talked to me in two months that I have never actually met! Do I need help or what?
Also in just this month, I got a job in the cafeteria and now must resign because of too much stress, a family friend of mine committed suicide, a guy tried to have phone sex with me and I cut him off in a cool way (let me know if you want the long version to any of this info), and I have begun to read Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis again. Also, I have not talked to Zack, a pastor I kept in touch with on the phone and computer that I found through e-harmony, in about two months, but still have hope that God's will is at work even in that seemingly hopeless situation. I have had God-sent visions and bible verses about this guy and he has had ones of me (which never happened to either of us before). Even when I consider that he is probably not interested in being anything more than my friend at this point in time, I cannot help but think about him and the possibility of more happening between us. At times I get frustrated and try to get him out of my mind. It always seems to be those times, like when I am driving when I will see a few motorcycles( he rides one), Kentcuky license plates (where he lives), receive a Henshaw newsletter (the church he works at),read a devotion or hear a song about Jeremiah equating the gospel to a "fire in his bones" (which is the first message Zack preached about for a trial sermon to become a pastor at Henshaw) or someone will mention in casual conversation traveing to Italy (where he told me wants to go on his honeymoon.. which just happens to be the same place I have really wanted to go for my honeymoon.. but I didn't tell him that of course).
Maybe I am just trying to make connections or something, but I get the message that the Lord just has us separated from each other for our own good for a little while in preparation and anticipation for something big. I can also see how maybe we were just good friends who encouraged one another at a crucial time in our lives, but deep inside my soul.. if I am really gut-wrenchingly honest I pray that he is the one for me and if not, God would make it crystal clear. I really would love to meet him, but his life is very full being a new associate pastor at a Christian Church and mine is also being a CNA and active nursing student. Translation: I like him, really miss his company and kinda wonder why he has not called since he moved to Kentucky (he was in Illinois). Anyways,I have not been as diligent with reading God's word like I had hoped I would be in school. I know I am a work in progress but also do not want to miss out on blessings simply because my eyes were closed to the word or God showing me. My sis is still struggling to make it at tech, I am hopefully moving in with Keely, a neat friend of mine, next semester, my mom is still looking for a full time counseling position, my dad is working hard at basically two jobs to make ends meet for all of us. I am reallyvery nervous about clinicals and all the I have to do for them.. paper work, research and actually giving patient care. I can see more and more how God is calling me to be a medical missionary AND a pastor's wife. That might seem a bit presumptuous, but God said it, so I believe it. How it will all come about is a part of the mystery and adventure we call life. Now I am talking to Nick.. a cool friend about God in his life. so I will be a good friend and write soon. In His Hands.. Peace.